Emancipation of Truth

Exciting!

2009-02-07T10:09:00.004+08:00

Yo ppl! Here's some random updates =)

Well well, basically these days I've been working on attachment.
I miss going back to school to dance,
but it's been great taking a short break for this entire week too.
I'm happy to go home early every night,
and see my parents so relieved that I'm going home early nowadays. =)

Meanwhile here's some stuffs I did on a random note.
Really really random!

Recently I found this Nike Dunks Template on deviantart,
hence I downloaded it and experimented with the designs and colours.
Didn't really have many ideas for it
so I just whacked whatever I could come up with.
Here's some stuffs I did:

Inspired by Mcdonald's Colours!

Inspired by Sexy Diamond. Notice the shoe lace's camou patterns!

Randomly inspired by the upcoming Dragonball movie...

It feels damn cool to design your own nike dunks!
But it's rather difficult too cos there's so many things to consider
and you tend to get fussy when you try damn hard to design what you want.
So i think i am fussy about my ideal shoe design. Haha!

Maybe that's partly why I have yet to buy a pair of Nike Dunks for myself.
Hopefully one day I will get one that I really like. =)

In the meantime, I had just realised that my life ahead is gonna be exciting,
especially in terms of dance.
In 10 days' time I will be in Osaka with Fong, Darren and Rahim,
and I'm so looking forward to meeting Hilty & Bosch once more.
=D

March brings LCL's first year anniversary celebrations,
training and preparation for NYP Club Crawl's locking item,
planning for a battle competition to be organised with Chris,
and also preparing for performance item for Max Party 6.

In April there's the Taiwan trip with Fbodz,
gonna perform and also battle at Max Party 6,
as well as travelling around to meet lockers around Taiwan.
And right after returning from Taiwan, it'll be my birthday.
Dope! =D

May will be a hectic month whereby there's KO Night,
which goes all the way to end of June.
And to end off June, there's 'The Big Groove',
which is going to be just 2 days after KO Night Finals!

Aren't it really exciting for everyone? Haha!
Oh yes, supposedly there's going to be a recital with Natasha Studio too.
Hoho~

I seriously don't know what will happen within these few months,
but I will be looking forward to experience everything and improve myself!
Not just as a dancer, but also as an instructor, leader, organiser, etc.
=)

Hopefully I'll get freelance designing jobs in the meantime as well.
I want to save up a lot of $$$..
Then go out and meet up with BFF and other friends for outings, gatherings,
maybe chalets or at least BBQs.
I wanna catch up on those ppl that I hasn't met or talked to for a long while!

6 more days to end of attachment,
10 days to Japan,
and so many more things to come my way before i go to army.
Perhaps, this will be the most fulfilling year of my life.

Hopefully all goes well. =)
It better be!

I....

2009-02-05T10:18:00.004+08:00

I don't know what is it that I should do.
I can only wait and see what happens, is it?

I need to know what I am truly feeling,
I need to sort out my thoughts,
I need to face all the unhappiness and guilt that comes with it.

I hope to find an answer soon,
I hope that I can overcome all the barriers that lies within me,
I hope that this won't drag on and on anymore.

I am trying to be optimistic but faces many uncertainties.
I am doing my best to be brave and not run away from it all.
I am going to jiayou and make sure that I won't crumble.
I am not going to succumb under pressure.

I am tired, but I want to be happy.

We Are Family

2009-02-03T09:44:00.006+08:00

A lot of things were being said last night between everyone,
but a common understanding wasn't reached.

It's all but a big misunderstanding all round,
and everyone has their own reasons for what they said...
However it's true that if certain things were explained better,
such a big conflict would have been avoided...

Sometimes it's more important to be tactful than being honest..
It's not wrong to be honest and transparent to everyone,
but sometimes the truth may hurt more if not explained clearly.
Somehow people are confused between the personal and the official reasons given,
hence the confusion and the impression of bias.
But since it's supposedly explained not to be biased,
why is it so contradicting when certain personal reasons were brought up?

To most people, all they want is a proper explanation
as to why some were not considered to be among the "chosen ones"...
They don't want to feel that they are being left out,
they don't wanna feel that it's biased...
They asked for an explanation, hoping that it's not really a case of bias.
But contradicting explanations were given
and in the end things only look more biased than ever...

It's already a big blow to be excluded like this,
so all they want is some consolation and explanation to ease their unhappiness.
Even white lies would have made them feel more comfortable,
so as to help them cope with the disappointment...

I'm not shooting anyone here btw, I am standing on neither side of the argument..
I am simply saying what is going on for both sides.

So on the other side, it has been very tough for him to handle the entire case.
Past experience from last year's incidents were already painful enough,
there's no need for a repeat offence.
All he can do is to do his best for everyone,
but when he's bounded by so many restrictions, this is the best he can already give.
Regarding the justifications given, I believe it wasn't a personal opinion,
but it's the justifications that has to be given to the school.
The choice of people may appear deliberate and biased,
but the truth is that these people does have most credentials to be justified in a way,
so as to convince "you-know-who" to give us the money.

Let's ignore the parts about personal and being comfortable,
the truth still is that "you-know-who" can only look at the surface and say
"Yes i know him/her. He/She has a post / They joined competitions and won,
So I'm okay with giving him/her the money"
Frankly speaking you can't expect her to know every single one from the club,
hence it's harder to justify for those who she don't really know.
It isn't that the rest aren't important to the club, that they don't contribute,
but it's that "you-know-who" can only help those who appears to be justified on the surface.
Everyone is part of the club, everyone contributes in one way or another,
and this trip is supposedly able to let everyone bond and have fun too...
But when it comes to money issue,
especially when we all know how fussy those ppl up there can be,
this is already considered the best solution available.

It is sad for those who is deemed not justified to be included,
but this is wad we have to accept when "you-know-who" can only look at the surface.
Considering that last year's trip was screwed,
the fact that we still got this opportunity this year is already a big blessing.
It's a chance for the club to redeem last year's mistakes,
so we gotta do our best to get things right.

What we can do to help ease the load of those not among the chosen list,
is to try to share the costs of as many things as possible.
As long as it is within our means and control, I don't see why we can't do that.
Talking about being family, this is how we can help each other..
Everyone has to sacrifice for one another, so that everyone can go for the trip,
enjoy it to the fullest and make it less financially taxing for everyone.

Personally i don't mind spending more so that others not included can spend less.
As a family we should work within our means,
and not quarrel about what we cannot change.
I do agree that a lot of things could have been explained better,
but hopefully that thru my post here people can get a clearer picture of what's going on.

This whole incident makes me don't even want to be subsidised anymore.
Cos i feel for those not subsidised... I do believe that yes, we are a family.
We still are, no matter what was being said last night.
Hopefully everyone can let this grudge go and move on,
and work together to make this trip happen.
It will be a great one for everyone if we are willing to sacrifice for each other. =)

Jiayou bro,
jiayou to everyone else too who has to work hard and save $ for the trip.
I will be praying hard that everything goes well. =)

don't wanna be left hanging on a thread...
everyone, just clear things up yea?

Moo Year

2009-01-28T10:15:00.002+08:00

CNY this year feels odd.
There's something weird in the air,
and all those visits just seem to be more like a routine rather than with a true purpose.
Perhaps the only purpose is to give/take red packets,
gamble and eat and drink to the fullest,
then go back home and count how much money u have left.

That's what i see.

Maybe the younger generation like us are feeling the difference...
I don't think we embrace the traditional values of CNY as much as our elders.
Most of us are brought up by the mentality that CNY is a time for red packets and food,
but will we even remember the relatives we visit?
do we truly know who is who? what is everyone's name?
will we still visit the same relatives again 10 or 20 years down the road?

I'm losing sight of what CNY is supposed to be like...
Sigh. Whatever.

I'm now facing probably the biggest crossroad in my life.
Whichever decision i make at the end of it,
I have to sacrifice something, though I will gain something too in return.
It's rather inevitable and I can only accept it.

Hopefully everything will be resolved soon. =)

Year of the Ox, may it be a great one.
MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~~

HAPPY CNY 2009

2009-01-27T00:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CNY!!!

Have a great year of the ox ahead! =D

it's a new beginning, hopefully. =)

My World Thru Lens.

2009-01-23T11:50:00.003+08:00

This world is a cold one for those unhappy and depressed,
a warm one for those basking in the bliss of happiness,
a cool one for those enjoying life,
and stormy one for those going thru the toughest times of their lives...

At different point of times, we have different thoughts about the world we live in.
So what exactly is our world made of?

I had a rather long conversation with BFF this morning, and a lot of things were said.
Which kinda made me think a lot, hence I'm blogging here about my thoughts...
We were on a topic related to my DSLR camera,
and during the conversation I realised how much my life was changed because of a camera.

Looking at life thru the lens of a camera does bring a very different perspective of life.
You can choose to beautify the things u see,
or you can choose to capture the uglier images and see how unglam this world can be.
You can capture raw emotions of everything,
be it happy or sad, depressed or overjoyed.
You can capture whatever is beautiful on the surface,
but beneath that surface could be something beyond what the camera captures.

There's so many ways you can twist the world with a camera,
so twisted that you can't differentiate what's real and what's not;
yet it can also capture things so real and vivid,
you'll feel like you're at the scene of the picture yourself...

This isn't just the only reasons why I love taking pictures.
Every picture may have its own story,
and similarly every photographer takes pictures for different reasons.
To me, the camera is my best companion when I feel lonely.
It is a friend that lets me see things from a different perspective,
to understand how beautiful yet ugly the world can be,
and also to capture moments that can leave a lasting impression for life.

The camera also acts as a veil that hides a photographer's thoughts.
Behind the lens, you do not see the photographer's face,
nor are you able to feel what he/she is feeling with every picture he/she takes.
Pictures taken may portray the happiest of moods,
but does that mean that the photographer was in a happy mood too?

Not necessarily.

With my camera I can look at things differently from what my naked eyes tell me.
It's just different when u simply put a frame to the things u see.
Can we apply this logic too to the reality we face?

Maybe we can all just try to see the world like it's made up of beautiful pictures.
At least it's a way to see things more happily.

And i can only sigh behind the lens...

Random Update.

2009-01-22T14:19:00.003+08:00

Yo!

Well I spent my time designing some shirts for LCL recently, and here's 5 designs...
Not really sure if I will just choose 1 or all 5 for LCL,
but personally I wish to print all 5 for myself eh hahaha!

Please do post comments if there's any designs you think is best!
=)

Later on there'll be a LCL session too at RP.
I'm looking forward to it, coz it's been 2 months since the last session!
Lols.

Will also be meeting BFF later to go CWP for a while.
ORANGE JULIUS! =D

And damn i hasn't been able to wake up on time lately in the morning.
For this week I've been taking cabs to work 3 times out of 4.
Today was best, i woke up at 840am when my work's at 9.
I took cab and reached at 915am,
with the cab fare at a whooping $17 including peak hours surcharge.
I had to pay with nets as i dun have enough cash.

I'm going broke very soon at this rate...
Coz i've been using my nets pretty often these 2 weeks,
I dunno how much's left of my pay from last month.
I only earned $184.90 cos i had 3.5 weeks leave due to my chicken pox.
Now i supposed i've already spent $50, $60 of it already...
That's like, 1/3 of the pay?!
T__T

Someone enlighten me how to save up for Osaka and Taiwan. =/

Meanwhile my aunt brought my laptop to repair today.
There is a high chance that it has to be reformatted...
Sigh. There goes my files... =((

Well well... the coming week feels very busy.
But at least the last day of january is Funkamania Finals @ City Alive,
feels like a great night to end off a very eventful first month of 2009.
I can't wait!
Trademark, Ruff Jack Represents and Poppers Action Party,
you guys will do great for sure. =)

so near and yet so far.

Crash and Burn

2009-01-20T13:42:00.002+08:00

"Crash and Burn" seems like the most appropriate phrase to describe my life now.

My laptop's officially down now,
completely unusable...
Windows just wouldn't load,
I get stupid prompts,
and when i chose to "start windows normally",
it will just restart on its own and the same thing repeats.

In the end i chose "Startup Repair",
and guess what?
It says that my SYSTEM VOLUME DISK IS CORRUPTED.

Does that mean my whole laptop's hard disk crashed?

Whatever is going to happen to all my songs, videos and pictures?
I has not backed up anything recently!!!

Think i gotta bring my laptop to the service centre soon,
which is all the way at KALLANG.
How great eh. -_-"

On the brighter side of things,
Details of the Taiwan Trip is gonna be confirmed soon...
I can't wait!!! KAOHSIUNG MAX PARTY AND TAIPEI!!!

and in less than a month's time, OSAKA!

I can't wait to get out of my attachment, fusion preparations and portfolio presentations...
I WANT HOLIDAYS!

Later on I will be going to Far East for outlet duty again,
working from 5pm to 10pm once more.
Well i don't really like to work at Far East, think Sengkang's a nicer outlet.
But well, i just gotta bear with it ba.

Hope my laptop's files can be recovered....
Sigh.

let me start my life anew

Drained.

2009-01-15T01:59:00.003+08:00

Ceekay is tired from an entire day of work and dance,
but is pretty satisfied with life so far now.
=)

Work at the Far East level 3 outlet last night was not bad,
the 2 staff there were friendly and approachable so it weren't stressful at all.
Although it was only 5 hours of work at the outlet,
it was already very very tiring...
I truly respect those who can stay at the same outlet from morning till night,
and multi-task so heavily as if they're superhumans.

It's not as easy as what we think to be in retail sales.

For tomorrow I will be at Compass Point's outlet (Sengkang)...
Another long long day awaits,
but I hope this outlet will provide a different and better experience.
=)

I had dance practice tonight too with Ray and Aud,
and I taught them my routine for the upcoming performance at Zouk.
Surprisingly i managed to teach all the choreography within 1 hour,
as well as going thru formation changes.
Well that's not too difficult as there's only 3 of us,
but I'm glad that I managed to teach the entire routine within 1 practice.
Shall work on it more as much as possible these few weeks. =)

So far, the routine looks fun and enjoyable...
Once the performance is over, I'll upload a video of the show on youtube
and share with you guys the routine!
I personally enjoys dancing to it a lot coz it's just pure fun. =)

16 more days to Zouk Performance!
I can't wait... haha.
Next challenge: CHARACTER DANCE!
WOOHOO!

Hmmm alrites, think i gotta go slp.
i'm feeling super tired and drained after a long long day.
work from 1pm-10pm tmr! ROAR!

wanna lie down in a grassland,
and let my worries be gone with the wind...

Wanna Be Happy!

2009-01-12T23:51:00.002+08:00

Ceekay wanna blog about happier things today! =)

Check this out ppl!

This is a routine that i choreographed yesterday,
for a Locking Beginners Class at Natasha Studio.
It was supposed to be K-Lock's class,
but i took over the class as he had something on.
Hence the opportunity for me to do a more complete routine to teach. =)

Hope you guys like it!

Meanwhile, tomorrow I start work at 1pm!
WOOOHOO!
But well i end work at 10pm la,
cos i'm posted to the 77th Street outlet at Far East Level 3!
Will be working as a service assistant there from 5pm - 10pm;
gotta be at the office to work first before that.
A busy day awaits but it sounds fun and exciting =)

I can't wait!

I'm also going to be choreographing a locking item soon,
meant for the performance at Zouk at the end of the month.
It's gonna be one hell of a great performance i hope,
cos the song I chose packs lots of punch...
I just hope that I can choreograph something that matches the song.

Recently I've been feeling pretty down and low on confidence...
Had been thinking about a lot of things,
and there's too many things for me to do, too little time to rest.
I know that I've been a pale shadow of what I used to be.
But right now, all i know is that, I wanna be happy.
And to be happy, I gotta give my all to pursue what I want out of my life.
It's a lot of hard work... But i will move forward.

I want to go ahead and conquer my fears,
and face the world with a strong, brave heart.
It takes a lot of courage to stand up,
and now it needs determination to follow it thru...

The future is in my hands,
I must believe. =)

Come What May...

Exhausted!

2009-01-11T01:16:00.003+08:00

Today was one of the most tiring days ever.
But i would rather say that it has been accumulating over the past week.
It's very straining when i try to live life the way i want to.

Guess what I want for my life doesn't seem to be too good to myself.

Work today wasn't productive.
And i was struggling to stay awake in fact.
Sigh.

I headed back to NYP for my Fusion Photoshoot,
meant for my graduation show.
Well the photoshoot took place in a very makeshift room,
with blank white papers being pasted over the walls to create a white background.
Kinda killed a lot of mood i had initially for the shoot.

Watched FB's performance for Open House,
which was really nice.
Heard that previous days weren't as good,
so I guess i'm fortunate to have caught their last show.
I'm proud of Circus and the locking items!
The senior girls did well for their items too. =)

Had a talk with Ian and Fong after that,
and a lot was being discussed about the upcoming trip to Taiwan Max Party.
I can't wait for it...
It will be such a great 20th birthday gift for myself! =D

So yeaa.. that was about it for today.
I have been struggling to stay awake most of the day anyways,
dozing off on trains, buses,
and just now after i took my dinner i just fell asleep straightaway for 3hrs+ till now.
Had to wake up to settle some stuffs and also choreo for my classes tmr.

I'm taking 2 classes yea, coz K-Lock couldn't make it to teach tmr.
Guess he got sth on at army.
So well i will have more $$$ to earn but it's more tiring,
and now i got more things to plan for as well.

Am i just so fated to be a workhorse?
It seems to me that I can never avoid being busy or having a lot of things to do.

Well, guess i should quickly go choreo something now then go slp.
My body's already aching kinda badly now.
Goodnights ppl!

The next step forward... what should i do?

Bad Bad Day

2009-01-09T01:31:00.004+08:00

I had a really unlucky day...
So many things happened, and I am feeling damn sian.

Dozed off on the table last night after publishing my last blog post.
Woke up at 630am only to realise I juz slept there for the night,
with the kitchen lights still on and my laptop still on AC power.
what an absolute waste of electricity.

I wanted to go bathe and wash up for work,
then my grandpa was washing up ahead of me.
So i wanted to take a short nap on my bed first,
as my back was aching after an entire night of sleep spent slouching over the table.
I told my grandpa to wake me up after he's done.
Guess what?
He didn't wake me up.

And i got scolded by my dad for not waking up early again.
Dammit.

Was struggling to stay awake in the office.
Had to be quarrelling with someone in the afternoon,
and got myself emotionally burnt out.

Left my laptop charger behind in the office when i knocked off work,
and now i'm using my laptop on battery-saving mode.
Dope?

Went back to school for someone but it all ended badly.
But never mind.
Another quarrel, an even bigger one, came.
It lasted for almost 2 hours btw.

Reached home at 11+,
got scolded by my parents for reaching home late.
Wanted to print my medical form for tomorrow's NS medical checkup,
but my printer ran out of some ink and i couldn't print.
It's supposed to be signed by my parents as well.
So i got scolded again for doing things last minute... Sigh.
This, i have no complains coz it's my fault.
but i'm really damn suay...

Gotta go sleep now and wake up at 6+ tomorrow,
and get my aunt to help me print & sign the medical form.
then go all the way to stupid bukit timah for my medical,
go back to serangoon north to get my laptop charger from my office,
and go meet Chris at SMU to recce the venue for a Pop Lock competition...

Another f*cking busy day awaits.

Ceekay is not superhuman.
He also have his own limits...
It will be very much appreciated if ppl can just go easy on him
and not stretch him to his limits too much.
Thanks a million.

Alrights, think it's time for me to go sleep.
May tomorrow be a better day,
although i don't see how it can be.
Goodnights.

Waiting...

2009-01-08T02:34:00.002+08:00

Patience is a virtue.
Or so everyone seems to say...

Yet I wonder what patience truly brings.
Not everytime patience is rewarded with the thing(s) that you wanted.
I've been thru this plenty of times myself,
and it's always disappointing when all the waiting doesn't bring the intended result in the end...
Now I've learnt to look at things on the brighter side,
and knows how to let go of my unhappiness better,
but yet right now I dunno if I should choose to wait again.

Maybe whatever I'm waiting for will never come.
But there's also a chance that it will happen.
I'm more certain of how i feel now,
but I'm not sure about what I should do about it.
Should I just wait, or should i do something about it?
When should I do it?
There's just so many questions that seem to have no definite answer.

Seems like I can only follow the flow... and follow my heart.

Whatever it is, I guess i just gotta wait.
All these waiting is a big irony in itself for some reasons,
but I believe that I won't be truly hurt again this time round,
even if I wouldn't get what I had hoped for...

May my wishes come true.

Good lucks to FB for Open House performances btw!
=)

see beyond the surface

Fizzing Out

2009-01-07T11:29:00.002+08:00

Ceekay needs more sleep.
More discipline.
I gotta make sure that I sleep at least 5 hours a day,
coz now I'm usually sleeping not more than 3 hours.

Working + Dancing everyday isn't easy.
Even though my office is just a 10 mins ride away from NYP,
it's still damn tiring to travel here and there,
and dance thru the night after working since morning...

But then again, it's always hard to convince myself to sleep.
Although there's nothing much to do,
I can spend hours online just chatting, being at facebook,
reading blogs or blogging myself,
watching videos...
There isn't any real purpose for staying up,
but i just wouldn't want to sleep.
It's as if there's still something out there that i should do,
but i never know what it is.

Maybe I'll only be contented if i just burn finish all my energy within 1 day,
making full use of every bit of strength i have.
Typical Aries huh?
Sigh.

Not a good thing.

I can't wait for attachment to end, and fly to Japan for my holiday.
OSAKA~~~~!!!

maybe it's you...

Melt The Snow

2009-01-05T15:36:00.003+08:00

This is a really nice song... =)

Sometimes out my window
I notice that you've
been crying over him
And I wonder why you just don't
Kick him to the curb
Instead of giving in

[Chorus]
You see love at first
is summer time
That's when you think that
every thing's fine
No one ever thinks it's gonna end
But when things go wrong
and winter comes
You're gonna need to run to someone
Left alone you'll just
freeze up again
But you should know
When it gets too cold
You're not alone
I'll melt the snow

Some nights I can hear you
Screaming on the phone over
something that he did
And I wonder what can I do
To make you throw him out
so you can let me in

You see love at first
is summer time
That's when you think that
every thing's fine
No one ever thinks it's gonna end
But when things go wrong
and winter comes
You're gonna need to run to someone
Left alone you'll just
freeze up again
But you should know
When it gets too cold
You're not alone
I'll melt the snow

I'll, I'll melt the snow
I'll, I'll melt the snow [x6]

You see love at first
is summer time
That's when you think that
every thing's fine
No one ever thinks it's gonna end
But when things go wrong
and winter comes
You're gonna need to run to someone
Left alone you'll just
freeze up again

But you should know
When it gets too cold
You're not alone [x2]

I'll melt the snow
I'll melt the snow

=))

A Good Start

2009-01-04T22:02:00.002+08:00

Hello ppl! =)
I'm in a pretty good mood today.

Had my first locking introductory class! =D

Response was okay, had 5 students today.
I'm not surprised about that as I'm not an established instructor,
and it's just an introductory course after all.
What made me most happy was that several students took today as a trial class initially,
meaning that they weren't sure if they should take up the full 4 weeks course.
However, after today's class,
all of them went to sign up for the full 4 weeks!
I feel so glad to see that...
At least it seems like a good start. =)

So today I spent the rest of the day helping out with some spring cleaning at home.
Mostly shifting of furnitures and cleaning up all the dust around...
My dad shifted the tv display set from my grandma's room to mine,
and my own room's set to my grandma's.
apparently my dad ordered a new cabinet/wardrobe for my 2 bros,
coz they are getting older and needs more space for new clothes.
cool.
My dad is discarding the computer table in the living room as well...
I also had to cleared a lot of useless rubbish in my room. T__T

Feels really tired now haha.
Guess i should really try to slp early.

Anyways! To all my friends..
I have something to announce. =)

Jeanie and I have managed to talk things out,
and right now she and I remain as very good, close friends.
She joked tht i'm no longer a bf, but a BFF now... haha.

And I would like to clear up all misunderstandings here as well yea.
Whatever that I blogged about her previously was a big misunderstanding...
It was a miscommunication on both sides,
and she didn't do anything that she was accused to have done.
In fact, she had proved me wrong and showed that she knew wad was to be done.
She had thought things thru and saw things in a better way...
It was not like what we all tot from the surface.

So if you had a poor impression based on wad I blogged about her,
I apologise for causing the misunderstanding.
Sorry to Jeanie too.
Hopefully all of you will see that she's a different Jeanie to what she used to be,
She is changing for the better,
and things are alright now between her and me.
No worries aite? =)

Life is slowly changing for the better, it seems.
Hope this will last!

If only you know... =/

New lease of life

2009-01-03T09:15:00.005+08:00

Yo people.
I'm here to update! haha.

Well, now I'm at 77th Street's office.
Been slacking the whole morning today though,
my supervisor is not around and i honestly feel too tired and lazy to do anything.
I spent my first hour here almost dozing off entirely...
-___-"

Really too tired from dancing too much last nite i guess.

Learnt new steps for Raizan's "Circus" last night,
as well as teaching Aud and SK the earlier steps...
It was really tiring to keep doing the routine the whole night,
but at least we all had fun =)

So I danced from 7 to 10+...
Watched some bits of Trademark's and Ruff Jacks' routines for funka.
It looks great!
JIAYOU GUYS! YOU ALL WILL BE DOPE I'M SURE!

And thanks Arjuna and Aud for your compliments!
I will keep it up for Circus... =D

Somewhat it feels like a new lease of life in dance for me.
I'm trying out new things, dancing with different people all the time,
seeing more and experiencing more,
and improving somehow at the same time.
Now other than locking, I'm doing Hip Hop for "Circus"
and probably will be doing Reggae too, also Raizan's choreo.
I'm also thinking of trying out old school hip hop if i can,
wanna try to come out with something on my own!

I'm trying to let the music flow in me as much as i can,
and so far I'm really loving it...
=))

I know that dance may not bring me far for the future.
It's not a career that can last u for life,
cos you'll never know what happens when u grow older...
you'll have your own family, your body is getting strained,
and then are u still going to dance after your 30s or 40s?

So now i just wanna dance as much as i can before i go to NS.
I seriously hope the trip to Taiwan's Max Party in April will happen too.
As for the future, I will take things one step at a time.
Dance most probably won't be a full-time career thing for me,
but if i can continue to dance i will do so of cos.
=)

Anyways!
I am doing some tube top designs for 77th street!
Check this out girls!

That's just some designs that I did...
Some of them are really random i think. Lol!
Hope the company will choose a few and manufacture it for sale...

1 and half hours more before I knock off from work today.
Guess I will slack my time away even more... =X

Sian.

can you feel it? =/

it's 2009!

2009-01-01T22:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2009 TO ALL!
May the year ahead be a better one than 2008 for everyone!!!
=))

this saturday it shall still be.

xing fu cao.

2008-12-31T17:50:00.002+08:00

Four-Leaf Clovers (also known as "幸福草")
Author: Ella Higginson

I know a place where the sun is like gold,
And the cherry blooms burst with snow,
And down underneath is the loveliest nook,
Where the four-leaf clovers grow.

One leaf is for HOPE, and one is for FAITH,
And one is for LOVE, you know,
And GOD put another in for LUCK --
If you search, you will find where they grow.

But you must have HOPE, and you must have FAITH,
You must LOVE and be strong -- and so --
If you work, if you wait, you will find the place
Where the four-leaf clovers grow.

I wish I can find a four-leaf clover soon...

2009 Resolutions + 2008 reflections

2008-12-29T22:02:00.002+08:00

2009 IS COMING!

And so here's my new year resolutions/wishlist...
wanna post it today coz i foresee a lack of time and energy
for me to blog or on new year's eve.

So here i go!
(not by order of merit/preference/whatever u call it)

Wishlist + Resolutions:

Dance-Related

1. Win KO NIGHT 2009!
2. Go Taiwan's Max Party and meet Aga, Yaobai, Elmo & other dope lockers!
3. Perform for The Big Groove 2009
4. Be part of Sunset Alleycats... (sigh)
5. Be a responsible and inspiring locking instructor
6. Bring Lion City Lockers to greater heights.
7. Get my first derby hat, sexy diamond gears, dunks and more dance wears!
8. Educate FB's next batch of lockers (Aud, Mike, KS, Jin, Ray, and more?)
9. Choreograph again for next FB Production.
10. Join a hip hop competition before I go for NS!

Others:

1. Work for 77th Street even after internship is over!
2. Save enough $$$ to get an ipod touch!
3. Save enough $$$ to go Genting with my mum.
4. Do well for Fusion 09's Design Portfolio!
5. Buy new lens for my DSLR Camera.
6. Take part in more photography competitions!
7. Take driving licence!
8. Go for fitness workouts and get ready for NS!
9. Play soccer with my B26 guys again. I miss you guys a lot.
10.Go home earlier and spend more time with family.
11. To be together with a special somebody...

That's 21 wishes/resolutions!
I'll keep my fingers crossed that all of them will happen. =)

Now i just wanna blog about my reflections for 2008.
Will try to keep it short.

First of all, 2008 had been a truly emotional rollercoaster ride.
It had provided me with a lot of memories,
be it good or bad... and it's the most happening year ever in my life.
I love 2008, and hate 2008 at the same time.

In terms of studies, it had been really crappy,
but I'm fortunate to end up at 77th Street now
and everything is going really well at the moment.
I love working here and it feels great!
FYP was the worst memory ever in DMD,
no thanks to my chicken pox as well as conflicts with my 2 grp mates.
It was also a period of time whereby I struggled to cope,
with both my studies and love life adversely affected.
Sigh.

In terms of dance, it's the year where i learnt and improved the most.
Winning KO Night was the best memory ever in my dance life,
and to have met so many dope lockers this year was really awesome!
From Gemini to H&B to AKA Ra, then to Yaobai and Elmo...
It's like a big dream come true!
Meeting 5 well known international lockers... wow.
I'm just like a kid, awe-struck by the appearance of his idols.

My greatest personal pride came in handling the LCL.
Big props for Ian aka Chunky,
the man who gave me so many chances to prove myself.
Passing down LCL to me was a big honour,
and i'm proud to see members of LCL improving.
There's more and more lockers now in Singapore too!

Right now, I'm going to embark a new journey from 2009 onwards...
And that's to be a dance instructor at Natasha Studio!
It feels exciting and I can't wait! =D
I'm picking up a bit of hip hop again now,
and I want to go further as welll...

In terms of friendship,
I'm really sorry that almost all of my friendships are suffering,
mostly a result of me being too involved with dance and with my prev r/s.
sorry ppl. i just couldn't find time to meet up, go for outings and all.
I'm truly sorry, especially to the following ppl:
-B26 guys for not joining u guys for soccer on Saturdays...
-Shiqi and Ruth for not being able to meet up or msg u two often
-Kes and CY for giving u two trouble whenever i have r/s problems.
-Any other friends who had been trying to reach me but can't...

I want to meet up with a lot a lot of ppl soon,
starting with my B26 guys...
and MR TAN CHOON HANG IF U SEE THIS U BETTER MSG ME!
STUPID BESTIE, I HAVE NOT MET U EVER SINCE U WENT BOTAK FOR ARMY!
-___-"

Last but not least. A conclusion about my love life...
My entire year was almost devoted completely to the one i loved.
Almost every single day, and every single second i could squeeze out for her.
It's sad that things had turned out this way,
but now I still firmly believe that
breaking up was the best option for both parties.
I won't say much, I just wanna wish her the best of happiness from now on...

As for myself, I dunno if I am falling for someone else now.
A lot of doubts and self-denials are going thru my mind...
Hopefully I can sort out my thinking soon,
and make the best decision for all...

Ceekay shall not be impulsive and impatient with everything.
I shall wait and think it through carefully. =)

Anyways, big thanks to the following ppl who had helped me lots recently.

Puaz Kor for your advice, encouragements and insights...
made me learn a lot!

Kes for helping me out and listening to my problems so many times.
I insist on treating you a meal someday.

Audrey for accompanying me online when I'm at work,
never failing to make me laugh even at the most tiring and stressful times.
You're just like a bubbly sister that never fails to cheer her bro up. =)
Thanks!

Diane for standing up for me a couple of times on my tagboard.
Thanks so much too... =)

Fong, for taking over the locking ppl during production
while i was suffering from chicken pox and couldn't come to sch.
It muz have been damn hard on you bro.
Thanks lots!

Lastly,
Bboy Larry, for giving me the opportunity to teach at Natasha Studio!

Anyone else that I have not mentioned,
I still do appreciate it if you've helped me in any ways.
Thanks to all of you! =)

Alrights. think that's all for tonight.
I realised i've been blogging a lot these days. Weird!
Okay goodnights ppl. Take care,

Happy New Year =)

Taiwan is the dope!

2008-12-29T21:09:00.002+08:00

Recently I've been trying to look for inspirations for locking,
and I turned to Taiwan lockers' videos for ideas.

TAIWAN LOCKERS ARE THE DOPE!

The one who had inspired me a lot a lot during FTL: Yaobai!
Dope musicality and style...

小杜 from Swift Lockers!
His style and character is what I would love to be,
and I see him (as well as Aga) as my style/character reference!

And this video is one of the dopest locking battle finals i ever watched.
dope musicality and moves!
a true eye opener.

so watching all these taiwan videos have truly inspired me,
and I've actually picked up a few new moves thru thse videos.
Now i'm so so keen to go for April's Max Party with Team Trademark!
Wanna go there with Fong to battle and learn!

Damn i need a lot a lot of $.
Wish i can save up $ as fast as Lesner... T___T

Anyone willing to sponsor me? LOL.

Natasha Jam!

2008-12-29T02:51:00.004+08:00

Today's Natasha Studio Jam Vol 2 was exciting!

It was great judging,
and certainly pleasing to see many lockers improve...
All of them were from LCL and i'm so proud of their progress! =))

And today I was introduced as a new member of Natasha Studio Crew.
I got 2 instructor t-shirts as well! Here it is:

I really like the black one!
And it even has my name on it!

Now that's cool eh?

What's more, I will be teaching as soon as next sunday!
Locking Introductory Open Class (4-weeks), starting on 4th Jan!
Anyone interested? =D

I'm loving life now.
Every moment spent dancing and designing is making my life meaningful.
Hope everything will turn out great eventually! =)

So yea... I'm now an instructor.
I never thought my dream will ever come true!
It has been a really long way for me to get here,
and I am so overjoyed now. =D

Hopefully there will be a good turnout for my first class.
May more lockers grow in Singapore too!

Alrites, think i gotta go sleep,
though i am a lil too excited now. Lol.
Goodnights ppl!

Circus!

2008-12-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

It's been a wonderful 2 days of work and dance! =D

So other than designing stuffs for 77th street,
these 2 days I've been going back to school to dance.
and guess what, I weren't practising locking!

Instead I was learning Raizan's choreo for the song "Circus" by Britney!
It's a whole new style of dance that I was learning,
and I wasn't the only one picking up this genre of dance for the 1st time...
Honestly it wasn't easy, but was definitely fun to dance to!

The downside to it is that my body have been aching very badly these 2 days too.
My abs and lower back are aching a lot because of the choreo's steps,
which i believe everyone is suffering from it too.
But for the dope dope choreo, it's all worth the aches!

These 2 days i've noticed that FB ppl are a lot more enthu about dance practs,
and almost every practice is like full out, intensive,
full of fun and joy and everyone's tight as a group...
I believe that it's because everyone miss chionging for production!
and I'm not the only one who think so too. =)

Hopefully FB will keep this up and continue to chiong all the way~!

Meanwhile tomorrow I will be going down to Natasha Studio's Jam!
I'm one of the guest judges for the locking battle...
It's my 2nd time judging for a small scale event,
and I'm looking forward to it.
Judging is really fun in a way... =)

Guess tonight i gotta sleep soon.
Been lacking a lot of sleep these few days...
Sigh.
Jacky told me last night that I look more skinny now,
and my cheeks are sinking in. OMFG.
I WANT TO GAIN WEIGHT!
AND GET MORE REST!

Gotta make myself more disciplined and go sleep on time...
GO GO GO! -__-"

a sunshine smile can warm even the coldest heart. =)

Christmas blues

2008-12-26T00:53:00.004+08:00

Christmas is officially now over.

Well, i spent Christmas sleeping away...
slept till 5pm+ today! haha.

Xmas eve was almost wasted away,
no thanks to a certain JOAN TYE who "flew us aeroplanes".
Aud and I went down to Orchard to find SK, who was shopping there,
and it was almost FATAL to be in Orchard on X'mas Eve.
Everywhere was crowded, roads were blocked,
and we had to walk in big rounds before we could get to our destinations.

In the end all 3 of us ended up going to The Cathay, and chilled at Starbucks.
Had a good time chatting before we went to watch "Yes Man" at 1.45am!
It was a great movie.. Jim Carrey was really hilarious!

So after the movie, Aud and I shared a cab with 2 of her friends,
but as i didn't had enough cash i alighted earlier at Yishun.
Initially i thought there would be a NR bus for me to take home...
To my horror there was none!

In the end.. I walked home from yishun!

The whole walk took me around 40 to 45mins?
I walked, jogged, sprinted my way home...
Dope hor? lol.

So i ended up reaching home at 530am!
That's like the latest time i ever reached home for years.
I can't rmb reaching anytime later than that anyways.

Met up with Jin Wen today for a men's talk session.
Had a good time chatting and eating,
and shared with each other our thoughts on a lot of things.
Thanks Jin Wen for the treat tonight too!

Somehow I'm now still in holiday mood,
and I can't believe that there's work tmr...
don't feel like going back haha!
There's funka pract tmr too...
now i can't wait to go for that lol.

To end off this post I'll post a few nice pics i took last night.
Finally some pics for u all to see! =)

the xmas tree at paragon!

the tickets for "Yes Man"

a nice pic of SK

don't feel like uploading too many pics here lol.
i've uploaded more of it elsewhere. =)

well well. i am going to slp alr.
goodnights ppl...

won't u learn to be more responsible to ur loved ones?
grow up and not make ppl worry for u anymore...
sigh.

Random!

2008-12-24T01:07:00.002+08:00

Okay here's some random updates,
to keep things not too emo on this blog. =)

First of all,
77th Street X'mas Eve Lunch tomorrow!
Yeaa I'm gonna be celebrating X'mas eve with my colleagues,
and as mentioned in a previous post
I will be doing a short locking solo for them.
Honestly I am still not prepared for it.
-___-"

Shall just go up and anyhow do hahahaha.

and btw today the boss Elim Chew told me that
I could be involved in apparel designs soon!
She wants me to start doing t-shirts for 77th Street first,
and may go on to do cap designs as well.
DOPE SHIT. I LIKE!

Hope i can manage it. Really.

Next,
COUNTDOWN OUTING WITH AUDPY and JOAN (and maybe Jess too)!
okay I hasn't been to a countdown for a long long time.
I wanna take my camera out to town and take pics like crazy too!

Hopefully my dad will let me go for the countdown...
=/

And a "date" with Puaz kor on X'mas Night (25th).
1 on 1 eh~~
LOL! okay dun get me wrong.
I'm excited but not that kind of gay excited.

Then FUNKAMANIA PRACTICES!
OMG LA. so damn last minute.
Forming up a crew which we dun even have confirmed team members.
But there's 5 confirmed members now and 3 pending ones.
We are calling ourselves "THE RANDOM CREW"!

Very random indeed eh?

and yeaa we have less than 2 weeks. wtf.
hope the organisers will postpone the prelims... hahaha.

Life is so damn busy and happening now.
I'm feeling excited about it all, and i hope it will last.
Come on let's make everything work!

So i shall go off now to sleep.
Wish me (and The Random Crew) luck! =)

Are you the one i've been looking for?

Emo Thoughts.

2008-12-24T00:12:00.006+08:00

I saw her blog today...
I did so after much consideration and struggles.
Coincidentally I've been listening to that same song too on her blog...
We both may be feeling the same things i guess.

merry merry christmas
lonely lonely christmas
想祝福不知该给谁
爱被我们打了死结
lonely lonely christmas
merry merry christmas
写了卡片能寄给谁
心碎的象街上的纸屑

and today, the mug that she gave me shattered.
i accidentally dropped it, it broke,
and now it resides in the rubbish chute.
when the mug broke, i knew it meant something...
i'm upset as well, but yet i saw it coming somehow.

fate always have its own ways of giving us signs and hints.
sigh.

I've been listening to the song below a lot of times these few days too.
Last time when she sent me this song,
she and i never knew what it meant.
Or at least to me, i never went to look for its lyrics,
and neither of us knew who the singers were.

Last night i went to look for it,
and guess wad.. the lyrics totally fit wad i was thinking.
Such a coincidence...
Yet again, i can't help but wonder if it's pre-destined.
Sigh.

Just as the song suggests, it's a struggle between logic and love.
And I chose to be logical, because I love.

So... Goodbye it shall remain...
I still wish you happiness, and I shall go ahead and pursue my own too.
Jiayou. =)

陈柏宇 Jason Chan (what a coincidence again) + 杨丞琳 Rainie Yang :
"理智与感情" (Reason and Sentiment)

Li Zhi Yu Gan Qing

遗憾到无助到难受到残酷到
到早上很怕张开眼睛
而望见墙上角灰一片都想到
那张脸便逃命无怨命

这么感性难怪无法撇清
已逝去感情早已没生命
这种反应完全是任性
告别唯有当擦亮眼睛

多少失戀者仍然健在
证实要放弃过去至找到未来
曾被爱同样有权分开
拒绝悔改会死于爱海
一生本应该活在现在
挂念会美化了错爱永远受害
谁像你能像哲学精彩
说亦恨难无可耐

谁没有盲目过然后再麻木过
要恭贺得到比失去多
曾念过明白过只不过花开过
最想念仍然是无花果

话虽不错人有时会痛楚
太自觉可能偏却没帮助
大千色相谁人凭什么
会令谁永世困在最初

多少失戀者仍然健在
证实要放弃过去至找到未来
曾被爱同样有权分开
拒绝悔改会死于爱海
一生本应该活在现在
挂念会美化了错爱永远受害
谁像你能像哲学精彩
说亦恨难无可耐

如可这么理智的话
那段爱可能是假
就与他哭到快乐吧
也许开心过总有代价

多少失戀者仍然健在
证实要放弃过去至找到未来
曾被爱同样有权分开
拒绝悔改会给感性伤害
一生本应该活在现在
谁每日能开心喝彩
最可惜理论如何精彩
那寂寞如何忍耐

Way Back Into Love

2008-12-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

Ceekay is not in a good mood today.
Very tired, drained, and somewhat emo.

I was struggling to stay awake thru work,
i dozed off the whole time while having a haircuit after work,
and my eyes are still threatening to close at this moment.

Anyways, something interesting happened today.
Well... my boss and my supervisors all now know that I was from Fonkay Styles!
In a way it's not surprising that they found out,
coz 77th Street was sponsor for KO Night,
but the thing that got me kinda shocked was that
I'm requested to do a 30s-1min private solo performance for the company on X'mas Eve!
Like... WTH?! T____T

So now I gotta look for a song and decide on what to do soon.

Coming up are plenty of dance events too.
I almost got into a team for Funka somehow
but turns out it's too late to register. =/
And then there could be a performance coming up at Zouk...
I'm gonna be involve with Natasha Studio soon...

Dance is gonna be such a heavy part of my life now.
Somehow I don't feel happy about it,
but I know this is what I'm fated for,
ever since I won KO Night this year..
Don't get me wrong, I'm not being proud or what.
I just feel that all these intensive dance activities
are part of the responsibilities I gotta shoulder when more ppl knows my name.
Just look at Fong, he has been so busy with dance so much more than me.
I should be counting myself lucky that I'm not as busy le.

All i want now is to spread my knowledge of locking...
Hopefully someone will takeover the baton by the time i go for NS,
and continue to bring the locking scene here to greater heights.

Christmas is coming real soon.
I have no date for 24th and 25th so far, although I have an idea in mind.
But I guess, the date that I want will never come...
Because there's already someone else in my place I believe.

So I can only wait. And I will...
I just hope that this time round,
I am not making the wrong judgements yet again.

My heart hangs by a thread once more.

Getting Together

2008-12-18T01:59:00.003+08:00

Tonight was the first time I had a BBQ with FB... Yeaa i certainly think so.
Haha! I don't remember having any with them before.

So yea, I was at Diane & Daphne's place for the bbq with my dance mates.
It was nice to have gathered with them all, eating and playing together.
The family feeling was somewhat still there tonight,
even though it could have been more complete if more ppl were around.
But nevertheless I still had fun =)

And i gotta say SORRY for the lack of pictures for this post yet again.
It's ironic i know, that as much as i loves taking pictures with my camera,
I'm absolutely lazy when it comes to uploading them and blogging about it.
Sorry. I'll do so this weekend i guess. =/

Nowadays... I see a lot of my friends going thru a lot...
It's like everyone is at crossroads,
with so many directions to move towards but not moving smoothly.
There's many people going through r/s problems...
be it break ups, quarrels, betrayals, or being unable to get together...
I see a lot of them going thru a challenging phase of their own.
I myself is one of them...
There are also people going thru other forms of challenges,
be it with their studies, work or family....
It seems to be a really long list.

I'm not sure about others, but I know what direction i would want to move towards alr.
However i foresee many obstacles ahead.... So i gotta work even harder from now on.
It's not easy for people to move on... But i'm doing well so far.
I will keep it up for sure. =)

I just hope that at the end of everything,
I will get what I hoped for.
Hopefully everyone else will also find an answer to the doubts in their hearts.
Goodlucks everyone, and good luck to me.

JIAYOU everyone!
=)

Got Educated!

2008-12-14T02:56:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm back to blog!
Cos I'm now free as FB PRODUCTION IS FINALLY OVER!!!!

It was a great 2 days show,
the audience had positive comments for our first ever production,
and I believe that we can improve even more from here on.
For the past 1 week since I returned to dance after suffering from Chicken Pox,
I had witnessed probably the most emotional week ever in Fbodz.

From being complacent and lack of urgency,
we grew to become a tighter unit who works for each other
and support each other strongly till the end.
Props to Gin and Jin Wen for inspiring the club
and making us bond together like a family.

For the first time in such a long while,
I feel that FB is finally like a family again. =))

I'm most proud of my Pop & Lock people,
cos from the audience's feedback our segment was the best (or one of the best).
You guys were dope!!! =D

Personally I didn't do perfect;
there were mistakes sometimes, be it with the steps or formation.
For Old-School Fusion i couldn't even get up properly from a split.
Guess my techniques are getting rusty...
I need to practise more after not dancing for 2 weeks,
no thanks to my stupid chicken pox.
zzzzzzz.

And somehow, I wish that the production didn't end.
It certainly don't feel like it should end,
and it feels as if we still have a show next week.
Maybe I just can't get enough of performing? Haha.
I love dancing under the lights and performing for the audience.
Their cheers and applause are every dancer's greatest recognition...
It's for our passion, our efforts, our sweat and bruises...
So much hard work and time spent for this production,
and it's all so worth working hard for.

Sad to say I may not be able to perform for next year's production,
as I should be in the army by then.
Shall see how things go and I'll keep my fingers crossed. =/

To Fbodz, we will always be a big family.
Let's not allow this new found spirit to die so soon right after production is over.
=)

*Pictures will be uploaded soon within days!*

AND IT'S TIME FOR ME TO REST AND RELAX!
OUTINGS! MEET-UPS!
HELLO I AM FREE! hahahaha.

and i happen to be single now too.

Well well, life must still go on.
May i find my way to my happiness again soon.
Thanks so much to all those who had shown concern!

Think I shall go sleep soon. It's like wad, 3am+ now?!
Haha. Goodnights people. =)

i found a familiar feeling back today... hope it will turn out good.

* Updates *

2008-10-12T16:42:00.004+08:00

Okay I'm finally updating. =)

I've been super busy and also super lazy lately to blog.
So sorry for the lack of updates.

Been busy with FYP + FB + LCL + spending time with baby & family.
And also trying to juggle part-time freelance job in between.
That's like a lot of things yeaa... 24 hours a day never seem to be ever enough.

FYP kinda sucks.
But at least now i get to work on my own for the time being.
And I will still deliver what I'm supposed to. So no worries. =)

Lately i've also been busy with FB's production.
Okay Pop & Lock fusion is getting on fine,
and we have had our production video shoot on friday.
I took lots of pictures during the filming process yea,
will edit and upload a few dope pictures that I think are worth posting. =)

For those who wants the pictures, get a thumbdrive or hdd to get from me.
But be warned: the entire folder's size is 7gb!
Total 1163 pictures taken. Dope ah!
Lol.

Lion City Lockers are going to have their first performance at FTL
and I'm in charge.
Practice starts on monday night,
but I've yet to choreograph anything.
Guess I gotta do it tonight. But shouldn't be a problem,
the choreography's gonna be simple.
Just hope that turnout for practice will be good. =)

And at the moment I'm taking up this freelance web design job.
It's pretty cool, i already got a couple of designs going.
Gonna do one more design tonight and will send it over for the client to see. =)

Hopefully I can get my pay (or at least part of it) soon,
so that I will have $ to pay for the iPod Touch that I've reserved with Jasmine.
I badly need a portable music player!

On top of that I'm getting a job to teach locking outside for once a month.
Should be like an open class kind of thing.
I'm looking forward to it! =)

Sounds like I'm a really busy man.
I know I aren't superman, but i have my priorities and I gotta get things done.
Love, Studies, Work, Dance.
Kinda can't do without all 4 because everything's related.
I study to work, dance for work, work for money, money goes to loved ones.
It's like a cycle and I will just do all I can to keep it going...

Things aren't totally smooth-sailing between baby and me at the moment.
But well in the end we know that our feelings for each other have always been strong...
Precisely because it's so strong, it hurts a lot whenever we quarrel.
Quarrels are part and parcel of every relationships,
but I will not let it break us up.
I just gotta work harder man. Damn damn hard.

Baby, I still wanna hold your hands.
And gently say in your ears, "I love you". =)

* Dead *

2008-09-30T03:35:00.002+08:00

What i need to do for the rest of this week:
(credits to baby, she does this sort of things for herself too)

Tonight:
~~Pack Dear's gift part1~~ Done!
Do random portfolio works - NOT DONE

Tomorrow:
FYP Concept Amendments
Check NYP E308 room availability for October
Choreograph for FB Production Pop & Lock
Fetch baby from work
Final touch-up to Dear's gift
Do more random portfolio works

Wed:
Meet K-lock for my $
Carry out all plans for 1st anniversary
Touch up portfolio works
Do wedding invitation card for Steppy

Thurs:
Present FYP amendments
Meet Karen's bro Vernon
Teach Audrey locking choreo
Fetch baby from work(?)
Complete wedding invitation card for Steppy

Fri:
Confirm first Floor The Love pract for LCLs
Fetch baby from work

Sat:
FB Production practices

There's so many things to do...
I'm so so dead.

And look at the time now...
i have less than 4 hours to sleep.
Hoho.

Do the right things at the right time...

* Just Another Monday *

2008-09-29T14:12:00.000+08:00

Blogging while at FYP again.
At this moment my project mates are out having their break,
while I'm here slacking after having my lunch.

October is reaching, and a hectic schedule awaits.
Coming up first is 1st year anniversary with Baby!
Then there's many others that follows...
FB Production practices, photoshoots, showcases...
Lion City Lockers sessions + Floor The Love performing practices..
And not forgetting my own FYP project that will be really taxing.
October is the month of non-stop scripting, graphics, and debugging.
All these will last till at least November.

And then there comes December whereby more challenges await.
The more power the more responsibilities?
Ha. I just gotta do my best for everything.

Meanwhile I've won a mini locking battle competition on Sunday,
which was organised by K-lock and hosted by Natashas Studio.
Got $200 for the prize money! =))
well ok i still have $50 with K-lock but that's fine,
i can get it back from him another day.
At least now i have enough money to spend for baby!
1st year anniversary's budget is settled...
Guess i'm really lucky this time round. =))

Honestly speaking I wasn't that happy to win the competition.
I mean.. i'm happy to win the $ of coz, as i had needed it..
but it does feel weird to win the competition against inexperienced lockers.
I am not despising them or looking down on them;
On the contrary i respect every one of them for putting in their best efforts
and put on a brave front in every single battle.
But it's a fact that I had an advantage with my experience from KO Night,
and personally i felt unfair for those guys who battled their hearts out.
Sorry guys, i just needed the money.
Otherwise I would have taken up K-lock's offer to be the judge instead..

Hopefully one day, as these guys get better,
everyone will have an equal opportunity to win something.
And I'll just be happily watching everyone dancing to their hearts' content.
=)

Meanwhile i'm kinda hooked on by F1 now.
Thanks to the live telecast of the F1 Night Race on television last night...
Now i finally understood the charm of F1.
It's not about the sheer speed of the cars alone,
but also the drama in the races, the booming atmosphere at the circuit itself,
the festival mood among the audiences,
and also the mechanical sophistication of the race cars itself.

Wished I was one of the photographers there.. I would love to be there,
taking pictures of F1 cars racing past me just like this:

Well yeaa.

Okay guess i gotta go.
Having my first interim presentation for FYP at 3pm!

* Kung Fu Fighting! *

2008-09-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

okayy i came upon this really stupid website, http://www.facesofoolong.com

and this is wad i found inside!
some really retarded video ads. lol.

and this:

omfg this is so stupid! hahahaha.

hope you guys had some laughs at all these. =)

* Sianz *

2008-09-19T17:00:00.004+08:00

Okay i'm blogging again during my FYP.

It's getting boring here, stuffy room and brain all dead from brainstorming.
Tried so hard to think of ideas, look at online resources and references,
and now i'm having headache.
And it's bad to sit down here all day long.

The only consolation is that my groupmates are interesting. LOL.

Going to PS to pick my baby up later.
She's dope! Sold $500+ worth of beauty products this afternoon alr.
Hope she will sell more tonite~... =)

I want a holiday. RARRR I WANT MY JAPAN TRIP.
can't stand waiting for so long...
and people have to juz keep asking me "so when are u going japan?".
Sigh. Have to wait till february i guess. Sian.

Can't wait to see my baby later.
I can't withstand my FYP room's stuffy atmosphere any longer.
arghs!

My eyes are closing. =/

* waking up *

2008-09-16T10:18:00.006+08:00

梦醒了 - 袁惟仁

我想起你描述梦想天堂的样子
手指著远方画出一栋一栋房子
你傻笑的表情又那么诚实
所有的信任是从那一刻开始

你给我一个到那片天空的地址
只因为太高摔得我血流不止
带著伤口回到当初背叛的城市
唯一收容我的却是自己的影子

想跟著你一辈子
至少这样的世界没有现实
想爱著你一辈子
做你感情里最後一个天使

如果梦醒时还在一起
请容许我们相依为命
绚烂也许一时平淡走完一世
是你选择我这样的男子
就怕梦醒时已分两地
谁也挽不回这场分离
爱恨可以不分责任可以不问
天亮了, 你还是不是我的女人?

---------------------------------------------

Finally I've slapped myself awake.
Never have I made myself face reality so glaringly.
All these while I thought I had already done so,
but today reality stared harder at me.
I dodged and tried to hide away from it,
but it only grabbed me even harder and i just had to look at it.

And looking at reality, it really bites.

All these time i've been hitting nails into a fragile wall.
When i realised my mistakes, i tried to pluck the nail out.
Some nails are out, but what remains?
Holes that can never be filled back up again.
And yet today, i made the same mistakes again.

Can i rebuild back a brand new wall?
Apparently no. Things can never be truly afresh.
Starting afresh is not so literal after all...
But I only have myself to blame.

All these while we've been living a dream.
Maybe you had woke up a lot earlier from me.
But i was still in the dream,
thinking that everything's gonna work out fine.
Now i've realised, the dream was long over,
and guess what... I was the one who ended the dream.
Yet I never knew.

"Always too late."
That's exactly what I am.
And i admit it.
The world has already moved on,
yet i am stuck at the same spot
and still thinking that i'm moving along too.
i gotta stop being naive.

the honeymoon dream is long over,
and what's left now is the bare truth that faces us.
I feared for the day the dream ends,
but now i know i have to get out and face reality.
i must solve this fast,
before even the slightest of hope is gone.

如果梦醒时还在一起
请容许我们相依为命
绚烂也许一时平淡走完一世
是你选择我这样的男子
//////////////////////
you chose me. and stayed with me all these while.
tolerating thru all the pain and anguish.
i must not let you down...
at the end of this journey,
we will be standing next to each other,
and not apart.

Ceekay, wake up.
The dream is over.
Take action fast before it's too late...

Jiayou...

* Updates! *

2008-09-16T10:18:00.002+08:00

Alrights it's time for a long overdue update here!

First of all,
CONGRATS TO BABY FOR YOUR GREAT RESULTS! =D
Dun feel that you didn't do well enough okay.
Your results were freaking good can?! =)))

Meanwhile, i'm in school now having my FYP.
The concepts are kinda out and we're progressing fine,
but i'm only worried that our concepts will be rejected.
We'll be praying hard that it gets approved!

Our concepts kinda revolved around a jelly-like character,
which was inspired by this movie character called "Flubber".
Rings a bell?

So that's Flubber. =)

But our concepts aren't rock-solid yet,
so we need to touch up on more stuffs.. yeaa.

And people, Ceekay is taking a short hiatus from dance.
To recharge my batteries and spend more time with my family & my baby.
Hope I can get myself refreshed, as if i pressed F5 on myself. haha!

Well well, i'm looking forward to the times i am gonna spend with Baby.
Daiso~! Swimming~! and more outings, more dates! =D
and hey hey~, we're just 15 days away from our 1st year anniversary!
=DDDD

Looking forward to days ahead.
Life is turning out better, i believe. =))

* My Baby Is A Silly-Pok! *

2008-09-10T00:12:00.005+08:00

If you are puzzled about my blog title,
well it was my baby who told me to put that up. haha!

random isn't it?
that explains. She's really silly. Haha... =p

But yeaa i love her being silly.
She's like a child at times, so mild and harmless,
so in need of protection and love.
Of cos I know sometime she did it deliberately so,
either to give me a chance to be more mature,
or that she is simply refusing to grow up in a way.
But no matter what reason it is, she's just cute. =))

So silly of her that she fears the day i die.
She made me promise that i won't die before her,
She can even feel amazed that I'm actually alive.
And marvel at the fact that she has a boyfriend.
Hello it's been 11 months since we got together!

Silly-pok indeed. T________T

And i love my Silly-Pok! =D

So, today I went out with her. =)
Brought her to watch Wall-E!
Ok yes i know we are a bit slow but we've been busy!

And the movie was great. Wall-E was just super cute. Haha!

My baby with Wall-E!

Trying to be retarded. Haha!

Trying to tickle Eve?

Okay she's pleased. LOL.

And so we went to eat at Nihon Mura after that.
Here's what we ate!

3 plates of sushi!
Yakiniku Don!
Grilled Bacon with Asparagus!
Dear's Mango Mousse Cake. Dope.
My Strawberry Oreo Ice Cream!

Yeaa and everything was for under $30. Dope? hahaha.
Well that was it for the day.
Short but sweet.
And I just love going out with baby.
Hope to have such outings more often.. =))

Meanwhile FYP is getting sian. I can't wait to graduate!
And it's about time for me to start getting back my fitness.
NAPFA training starting on thurs!

Wish me luck. =/

Baby I wanna hold u close,
with your heart real close to mine. =))

* KO Night Champion! *

2008-09-06T15:20:00.009+08:00

FonKay Styles - KO Night 2008 Locking Champions!

KO Night 2008 is finally over,
and I'm proud to say that FonKay Styles won!
Congrats too to Red Line, Floor Tech and Sunset Alleycats,
fellow champions of KO Night 08'!
=D

It was a really amazing night,
with a dope venue, dope lighting, dope stage and dope judges.
Of cos there was also a great audience who cheered for us. =)

The battle itself was a memory I'll never forget.
Though most of the music were mostly quite unfamiliar,
Fong and I still did to our best and I guess we won over the judges.
Credits to Faith Society Crew too, they had put up a great show as well!

Personally I feel that I had tried my best,
though after the battle,
I realised there was so much more that I could do but didn't.
At certain points of the battle I actually blanked out in my mind,
but I just kept dancing and tried to catch back my momentum.
Chunky said i "tend to be unstable in the beginning but goes up eventually",
So that kinda sums up what went on with me last night.

But well, there were good comments too so i guess it wasn't that bad. =)

On another note, HILTY AND BOSCH were DOPE~~~!
Amazing. It was a great eye opener and a big dream come true too...
Watching Hilty & Bosch LIVE!
OMFG. Dope musicality, techniques and showmanship!

And I would like to thank everyone who came down to support.
FB ppl, LCLs, and all those others who came down for FonKay Styles,
THANK YOU. =))

Most importantly, thanks Baby for coming down
even though u have work the next day.
I love you. =D

Oh and my parents came down too! Hope they enjoyed the night...
=)

Here's some pics to sum up this post!

Fonkay Styles's introduction before the battle

Ceekay in action against FSC

Fong in action against FSC

Round 1 results: Judges all in favour of Fonkay Styles!

Hilty & Bosch locking showcase!

Dope Synchronisation!

Funky!

Awaiting for the results...

Victory!

Me with my dad. =))
Yuu of Hilty and Bosch!
Jin of Hilty and Bosch!
Fonkay Styles + FSC
KO Night 2008 Champions!
The Gold Medal!
5D4N Trip to Tokyo Japan! =D
Last but not least, my dearest baby. =D

KO Night 2008 has finally come to a close.
I don't know what lies ahead for my future in locking,
but at least for now I'm gonna take a break from intensive dancing.
Shall focus on my FYP, as well as spending time with my family and my baby.
=))

FonKay Styles will be back someday, I believe.
Till then, bye for now.

* boring FYP *

2008-09-03T15:52:00.000+08:00

FYP's really boring.
Monotonous.

*YAWNS!*

Thanks goodness tmr and friday I will be out doing research with my group mates.
If not I am really gonna suffocate in this stuffy room man...
arghs.
I really dun like FYP room. =/

At this moment i miss baby a lot.
=(

KO Night is just 2 days away! HOHO.
Preparation for it is alright.
Need to do more tonight...
and rest well tomorrow.

I'm getting into the battle mood.

I really dunno how i can survive in this room for 3 months.
O___O
Somebody save me. sigh.

Your love is the air i breathe. =)

* At FYP *

2008-09-01T10:29:00.000+08:00

Happy 11th Months, Baby!

*yes yes it's 11 months. 1 more month to be 1 year! =)*

Hello all, Ceekay's blogging from school now.

As of today onwards,
Ceekay will be having his Final Year Project (FYP)
for a period of 3 months!
So yes right now i'm in my school FYP room,
waiting to be briefed on my project tasks.
Apparently I'm doing some visualisation stuffs. T___T

Just some minor complains here;
The computer i'm using now kinda sucks.
Some old Compaq PC with a small Samsung monitor.
The mouse they use are so poor that it's hard to click,
so in the end i decided to just plug my own mouse into the USB
and use my own mouse instead.
3 months of using this old com, torturing indeed.

But of cos i'm still looking forward to FYP days.
I wanna have a more regular timetable
so that i can plan my time better.
And the environment here's gonna be like a real working office,
which is really cool in my opinions.
I'm sure it'll prepare me well for my attachment days ahead.
=)

On another note,
this coming friday is KO Night finals.
omfg. LOL.
just 4 days away to the night I've been waiting for 5 months.
I feel so motivated for it,
though Fong and I are rather unprepared for now.
But tonight, and the following few nights too,
we're gonna practise hard and put in our best efforts.
=)

Oh and i almost forgot to mention,
I've finally gotten my SLR camera last saturday!
My latest acquisition: Canon EOS 450D!

Canon EOS 450D

omg i can't believe it's mine.
Thanks to my dad!
=D

didn't get 1000D cos actually 450D's specifications are better!
12.2 megapixels, 3.5fps shooting speed,
LiveView with autofocus, Image stabilizer added,
and there's so so so much more functions!

I'm really excited about this camera.
Can't wait to take plenty of pictures with it! =D

Last but not least,
I'm looking forward most to dinner with my baby tonite.
It won't be anything posh or what,
but what matters most is meeting each other,
having a meal together after my long day at FYP,
and before I go back to school for my dance practice.

Jeanie is the love. =))

Hope FYP won't be that boring today.
Well well.. =/

2008-08-29T18:29:00.004+08:00

Hello!
Back to blog again. =)

Well first of all, congrats to baby for finally pulling through studio project!
=D

So i brought her to Pariss International at Marina Square for buffet.
Ate to our fullest!
Imagine us eating almost non-stop from 1130am to 2pm
that's like 2 hrs 30 mins of eating!
WOAH.
Dear said this is PT.
Pig Therapy. LOL.

Right now i'm in school at A239 studio,
slacking and watching locking videos, blogging,
but basically just very tired.
=/

For locking i seem to have lost the funk.
I want my funk to be back!

ANYWAYS!
I've been happy lately
coz of a few surprising things that i got/is getting soon:

Manchester United Home Kit 2007/09!

omfg.
thanks so much to dear and her kor!
okay they didn't directly give the shirt to me,
i will pay them back somehow,
but what matters most is that I got my first ever Man Utd jersey!
=D

and up next, is a NEW DSLR CAMERA!
Thanks to my dad, who is gonna sponsor me one.
=D

This is the model that i'm craving for:

Canon EOS 1000D

Chio rite? LOL.

Hope this is the model my dad will get for me tmr at IT Fair! =))

Looking forward to posting great pictures here next time.
Heh!
So that shall be all today.
Hopefully i can blog more often soon too.
=)

bring back the funk to me. =/

* Fireworks! *

2008-08-26T22:31:00.004+08:00

Ceekay went to the Fireworks Festival with his baby! =)

The fireworks display was really good!
Loved the way it was being displayed with the music.
Dope musicality! Lol.

Anyways these few days I've been down with a cold.
Probably because of the bad weather lately...
But I'm feeling much better now le.
Been taking a short break from dance since last saturday,
but gonna start practicing for KO Night tomorrow.
It's less than 2 weeks away!

FonKay Styles shall shine. =)

Time to start listening to more funk music again,
Think of new variations,
Brushing up on basics and techniques.
5th September, here we come.

On a sidenote,
ANYONE WANTS A TICKET TO KO NIGHT FINALS?
If you're interested to get a ticket but can't get one yet,
you can purchase one from me! =D

And now it's 3 days more before baby's freed from her studio project.
JIAYOU K! DUN GIVE UP!
And we're just a few days away from our 11th month too. =D

I just can't wait for 5th September to come.
RARRR!

* Much to be updated! *

2008-08-24T09:08:00.012+08:00

Hello people. =)

There's much to be updated really.
So here I go.

Lime's Funkmeister Dance Challenge's officially over.
And well, I didn't win anything for my solo/duo category.
As for my group, Mels Meet Lions ft CK, we backed out of the competition.
I know this kinda shocked many... apologies to those who had supported us.

We backed out for very simple reasons: we were ill-prepared.
The obvious clash in timing between Suntec Dance and our competition was unavoidable,
and it was difficult for those involved in Suntec Dance to strike a balance between both competitions.
So as it is, we backed out for team reasons.
Well I can't say that i'm not disappointed somehow,
coz we had worked hard as a team and came together,
but yet we have no choice but to back out of a competition that we could do well in.
However i'm really happy to have worked with the team,
and i'm looking forward to future collaborations again. =)

Thanks Melanie, Melissa, Elisha and Bin.
You guys had been great team partners. =)

Well, the outcome of the competition only served as a big reminder to me that,
joining dance competitions isn't the most practical way of earning money.
Especially when the fellow competitors are really dope too, it's gonna be even harder.
There's no guarantee that you'll win, but you have to work your socks off,
spend so much time, effort and money, only to lose out and not gain anything
except the cheers, response and maybe appreciation from the audience.
But that's not practical.

Right now i'm setting my sights on KO Night finals.
5th Septmber 2008, Singapore Post Centre,
Versus Faith Society Crew.
It's less than 2 weeks away... Time to level up.
I just wanna show the world the locker in me,
the love i have for locking, the love i have for the music.
I don't wanna care about the outcome anymore...
What matters most is to enjoy the battle, just as how i always did. =)

Anyways i went to watch the fireworks festival with my baby last night!
It was the finale fireworks display of the festival,
and it just happened to be by Korea! (baby's mad about korea yea)
The fireworks were really impressive.
Its timing to the music was programmed to perfection too...
Dope dope.
And more importantly, it was a great great night out with baby.
=))

Pictures to be uploaded soon!
Guess i gotta get my lazy ass moving. Haha!

Final Year Project (aka FYP) is gonna start soon.
1st Sept. Isn't that like 8 days away?!
Shit.

Sometimes i wish i'm not CeeKay, but simply just Soh Chun Kiat.
I just want a simple life with my baby,
I wanna be a carefree dancer who don't have to care about anything.
But nowadays, everywhere i go i see strangers waving hi to me.
Sometimes they'll nod at me, as if showing some kind of respect.
Honestly it really feels weird... I'm not some star or what.
It's strange to see people you dun know saying hi to you,
and it's even more weird that they're treating you like some famous guy.
OKAY i know you guys are gonna say that it's true i'm famous now coz of KO Night.
I can't escape from that fact,
especially when the battle videos are up on youtube for the world to see,
people from Lion City Lockers know who i am too, and so on.
But what i'm trying to say is that,
I'm not used to all these attention on me. Sigh.

I just wanna be a dancer, not a dance star.

But well... there's no turning back for now.
I juz gotta move on and on, till the day comes when I can let go of it.
I know that day will come. =)

"I Need You" - Michael Jackson

I need you girl
I couldn't live a day without you

Well I tried to write a special song
A love song just for you
To explain the way you make you feel inside
Thought the meaning may be simple
And the worlds may not be new
I couldn't make it clearer if I tried
I need you
And I couldn't live a day without you
I need you
More than anyone I ever know
I need you
And I wanna build my world around you
I need you
I need you

Well I sang the words and realized
It had all been said before
So I tried a different rhyme that meant the same
But it didn't have the feeling
And the first one said much more
So I guess I'll have to say it once again
I need you
And I couldn't live a day without you
I need you
More than anyone could ever know
Couldn't live a day without you girls
I need you and I wanna build my world around you
Baby I need you

Oh I need you Baby
More than anyone could ever know
Couldn't live a day without you girl
I need you and I wanna build my world around you
I need you
I need you
I want you
And I couldn't live a day without you
Yeah yeah
More than anyone could ever know
More than anyone could ever know
I need you
I need you
I want you
And I couldn't live a day without you
I need you
Yeah yeah
I need you

Well I tried to write a special song
A love song just for you
I need you

* Upcoming Events! *

2008-08-18T23:56:00.003+08:00

Yo people, Ceekay's back to blog once again...
Finally found the time to blog again =)

Recently I've been busy with a lot of stuffs yea.
Last Saturday was KO Night locking showcase for FonKay Styles,
for which we got good feedback from everyone...
But admittedly there were plenty of mistakes yea.
Gotta brush up on a lot of things.

On Sunday there was Lime Magazine's Funkmeister Dance Challenge.
I got into the finals for both Solo and Group Category!!! =D

Here's the videos for both. =)

Mels Meet Lions ft CK!

CeeKay's semi-finals solo. =)

So that kinda summed up my weekend. Yea.
And congrats to those who made it for Suntec Dance too!
Jiayou guys. Let's achieve something together =)

Portfolio presentation today wasn't good.
Sigh. Kinda wasted an entire night spent without any sleep. =/

So tonight I'm gonna sleep early.
I can't remember when was the last time i really slept well,
so hopefully tonight i can rest more...
But i hope my baby will be fine spending the night to do work...

Jiayou okay. Dun give up...
You can do it de. =))

Lime Funkmeister Dance Challenge FINALS:
23rd Aug 2008, 3pm -5pm, Bugis Junction.
=)

* FIR Concert *

2008-08-13T15:22:00.009+08:00

As promised I'm going to blog about FIR's concert!

Credit goes to Chun Yuan who gave us this pair of complimentary tickets!
It's been more than 10 years since i last attended a concert at Indoor Stadium,
so it's really amazing to be able to watch FIR live in concert yea.. =)

The stage design for the opening. Look at the crowd --- FULL HOUSE!

Okay that's really dope. A full house concert...

Look at all these lightings... really dope.

And of cos, what can a concert outings be without pictures of myself and my baby?

=))

So overall, it was a really enjoyable concert,
with dope lighting and showmanship from FIR.
Faye was good!
Not to mention Jam, my idol who happened to be the guest singer.
Dope dope dope. =D

Hopefully I'll get to go to more concerts with dear.
=))

On a sidenote,
I'm now stuck with many dance commitments.

16th Aug (Saturday): KO Night Semi-Finals Locking Showcase
17th Aug (Sunday): Lime Funkmeister Dance Challenge Solo + Group Semi-Finals

Somebody please slap me in the face and remind me that
my portfolio presentation is on 18th Aug! RARR!

I just hope that I can win the Lime Funkmeister Dance Challenge.
Sigh. =/

* =( *

2008-08-13T14:22:00.003+08:00

Baby jiayou.. <3

How i wish i can help her with everything now. Sigh. =(

* New Blogskin! *

2008-08-11T04:37:00.003+08:00

Ceekay finally have a new blogskin!

CREDITS TO CHAN JEANIE, my dearest baby gf,
for helping me find this layout. =))

Okay actually my intention was to design my own,
completely from scratch which includes my own html scripts.
But i've been so busy lately that i can only make do with this one,
which was found on blogskins and i merely added my own banner pic.
So yea.. hope one day i can still do my own blogskin.
=)

Anyways, big apologies for the very lack of updates!
It's been almost 1 month since i last blogged...
Been really busy with alot alot of things yea.
Especially with assignments, projects, presentations,
dance practices and competitions,
and of coz not forgetting spending time with baby and my family.
But now at least my school semester is over...
So now i'm left with my portfolio presentation,
KO Night semi-final showcase,
and Lime Funkmeister Dance Challenge semi-finals to think about.

Here's the latest videos from my KO Night quarterfinals!

Fonkay Styles vs Airline

Fonkay Styles vs SLZ

Enjoy the videos yea. =)

And i've been going into photography lately...
Been taking alot of pictures,
and also had the chance to use a DSLR camera for the first time.
Here's the pictures taken by myself for a photography essay assignment:

Just a few pictures from what i've taken. =)

And so you can see how busy i've been.
But I was fortunate to still be able to find time
and go to FIR's concert with my dear. =D

shall update on that soon yeaa..
pls do tag on the tagboard ppl!
guess that shall be all for this post for now.
hope i can find time to update this blog soon again.
once again, hope u guys like my new layout! =)

* hang on *

2008-07-15T03:21:00.002+08:00

i must hang on.
i must.

no matter how tired it is,
no matter how difficult it will be,
no matter how many doubts i have to prove wrong,
i will hang on and change...

and all i want is your smile.
=)

* improvement? *

2008-07-14T02:30:00.004+08:00

KO Night battle rounds are over,
and now it's left with the grand finals on 5th Sept.
How fast time flies! =/

(on a sidenote, click here to find out more abt the finals ->click!)

I shall not indulge in the joy of getting to the finals now,
because it's not even certain that Fonkay Styles is gonna win.
Celebration shall come only when it's all over,
be it a victory or not on that fateful day itself.
I just wish for everything to be over soon, really.
Though i will definitely give my 200% for the finals.

Just have some thoughts on my mind now,
after the two battles last night.

Admittedly i wasn't at my best. I was even off-form.
And the audience was strangely abit muted too.. somehow.
It felt very different from the previous two rounds.
Or maybe it's just me feeling sian. perhaps.

The battle against Air Line,
much as we won, i was more like a spectator in a way.
I enjoyed Air Line's performance
even though it's clear that they've juz started locking not too long ago.
At least they gave their all,
despite knowing that they're already out of the competition.
And their sets were really entertaining!
respect, respect.

As for myself, i didn't know the music. I swear.
But i was fortunate to have managed to recognise the music patterns.
So it turned out okay i guess.
=)

Then it was the battle against SLZ,
for which our very own Mel from FB had replaced Bboy Zul
to partner with Melissa.
They're dope!
Especially for Mel, considering it's her first time doing locking,
first time battling, and she really did well!
As for the tag i did with her,
it was a last minute spur-of-the-moment idea between us. haha!

Well, In the end they won, and rightfully so.
Fong and I simply didn't go straight for the win;
we just wanted to enjoy ourselves, and we did. =)

At least it was a happy ending for everyone.
FonKay Styles and Faith Society Crew got into the finals as expected,
while Mel did well for her first time in a battle,
and everyone enjoyed themselves for the night.
=))

My reflections about the whole thing so far?
Well.. simply said, I still have a long way to go.
I still dun see myself as a dope locker,
though i do admit that i have improved much.
But i'm still not consistent enough.
Now i gotta find time to practice,
in the midst of handling other priorities..
especially for my family, my baby, and my studies. =)

Thanks to all those who came down to support ytd!
Sorry if anyone of u were disappointed somehow by our performance.
But we will definitely put up a great show in the Finals! =)

Big thanks to Fong and Diane,
for all the things given to me ytd.
But fong, i still wanna pay u back somehow.
=/

And as usual, most importantly of all,
THANKS BABY FOR COMING DOWN TO SUPPORT!
thanks so much for coming down,
even though u couldn't have enough time to finish ur hw,
and now u're rushing work despite feeling unwell.
i really appreciate it dear, but at the same time i feel guilty.
=((

i love baby. <3

i just can't wait for KO night to be over,
then FTL and FB production.
I badly want to rest,
but now it's really hard to. sigh.
I wanna have more time for my other priorities. =(

and it's really late now.
hope baby can pull thru this week.
i shall help her as much as i can...

locking is the passion.
jeanie is the love.
=))

* portfolio sucks *

2008-07-10T19:31:00.002+08:00

i hate portfolio. RARRRR

* first performance *

2008-07-07T23:27:00.002+08:00

Fonkay Styles' 1st invited performance!

Thanks to Darren for the vid. =)

well, not a perfect show, mistakes were everywhere.
but heard we got good feedback from most ppl
and that we were funny. hahahaha...
that's gd enough to hear. =)

this saturday will be the last 2 battles of KO Night,
before we find out who gets into the finals.
exciting eh... haha.
looking forward to it.. =))

and this entire week is gonna be busy like crazy.
sigh. =(

let's juz hope for the best ba.

* Fonkay Styles Performing! *

2008-07-03T15:42:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE.

Please come down to *Scape from 5.30pm to 7pm tomorrow,
to catch FONKAY STYLES' 1ST OUTDOOR PERFORMANCE!

FonKay Styles will be performing for a charity event,
and we hope that you guys will come down to lend us your support.
We are looking forward to putting up a good show! =)

and O School posted up the KO Night TOP 5 video on youtube le.
so for those who didn't catch it during the last KO Night battles,
or didn't know it has been on O School's website (http://www.oschool.com.sg/),
you may watch it here now! =D

hope you guys liked it. =)

and i can't wait for everything to be over.
then i will have more time for what's truly important to me.
=))

* pushing limits *

2008-07-02T18:38:00.003+08:00

everything just goes to prove,
i'm not as good as what everyone thinks i am.

but i won't just sit back and indulge in self pity.
i will do all i can to push myself even more.
so what if i'm already tired?

i'll push myself beyond my limits,
if it all means that i can keep what i feel is important to me.
even if i'm fighting this battle alone,
so be it.

i will not give up... i mustn't.

* speed test *

2008-07-02T18:36:00.001+08:00

72 words

Speed test

* quiz *

2008-06-28T23:54:00.003+08:00

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be ?
I will find out the reason why b4 i make any other decision.

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be ?
To have more time to spend with my loved ones.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like ?
Same as my dear (go read her blog! click here)

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you ?
a little.

#5. What's your ideal lover like ?
Cute and bubbly, with beautiful eyes and a sweet smile. Long hair.
Always able to cheer me up. =)

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone ?
Loving the person who loves u too.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love ?
found her. =)

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do ?
wait to see what happens

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days ?
read post below.

#10. What do you want most in life ?
Happiness, love, time and money.

#11. Is being tagged fun ?
only if u enjoy reading what i wrote above. no?

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time ?
married.

#13. Who is the current most important person to you ?
my dear.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is ?
She's cute, sometimes a little crazy, but yet easily emo and angered. But when u can make her smile, her smiles are good enough to remind u why she deserves to be loved. =)

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor ?
wanna be married but rich.

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ?
a killer whale or dolphins. i grew up watching free willy and flippers!

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do ?
I would prefer not to have my hearing problem.

#18. What kind of person do u think u are ?
A guy.

#19. What do you define as a bad day ?
when nothing goes right.

#20. If you have to choose between love (as in boy-girl relationships) and friendship, what would it be ?
love. true love lasts till end of your life.

Next 8 targets:
i feel too lazy to get anyone to do this. so all of u are spared. =)

* sick & tired *

2008-06-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

i'm finally back to post,
after dunno how many 889217389130919 days.

and only 1 word can sum up how i feel right now:
TIRED.

as in, really tired and worn out in many aspects.
not getting enough slp (slept for total of less than 6 hrs in past 2 days),
not getting enough to eat (been eating only 2 meals per day),
not getting enough $$ to spend,
not getting my homework done,
not getting enough time to spend with my family,
not getting anything right for whatever i do.

it's very disheartening.
but what can i do?
i can only try my best to hang on, to improve,
to do all i can to make things right.

sigh.

i felt so tired that the moment i reached home today,
i went to my bed immediately.
even after bathing i just landed on my parents bed to rest.
my feets were still numb and aching,
and at this moment they are still numb.
too much dancing, walking and shopping done today... sigh.
i think i almost hurt my toe when dancing nick's choreo today.

and i feel so cui (meaning, very weak).
i had to struggle to stay awake.
i had to bear with my hunger tht i almost got gastric.
my shoulders and neck were aching like crazy for the whole day,
and so were my feets.
i feel that i've lost so much weight, so much body mass.
my muscles are in decline. seriously.
i dun feel fit anymore.
gone are the days where i was a really fit physical training instructor.
=(

and then i have no $.
which sucks especially when i have a gf.
i want to be able to buy my baby more things,
to provide for her and also for myself,
but i just dun have $. dammit.

everything is just taking its toll on me.
being a designer, a dancer, a boyfriend,
the eldest son at home,
the future head of the family,
and for everything there's so much responsibility.
i know i gotta be able to handle everything,
i wanna be more mature and stable so that i can handle it all...
but time and energy isn't on my side.
i keep trying my best
but things just screw up when it all comes together.

for design,
i cannot fail my 3D modelling again.
i cannot fail my portfolio.
i cannot miss anymore art & design hist lectures

for dance,
i gotta focus on KO night and FB production,
which is enough to kill all the time i need for homework.
brilliant.

as a boyfriend,
i gotta be more understanding, to give in more,
to be more alert and mature, stable,
basically i juz gotta be everything that every girl wants their bf to be.
and now i've added a new priority,
and that's to save more $ and earn as much as i can.
i wanna treat my dear like a princess. =))

as the eldest son at home,
i gotta find more time for my family.
that's the most important thing
but i juz can't seem to get it done.
sigh.

and speaking of being the future head of the family,
i dun even think i deserve to be one.
but i cannot hide from this responsibility.
i gotta save more $ for the family,
for my own marriage and everything else.
and it's time that i start to be really less dependant,
coz next year i'm going NS already.
if i dun start being more independent now,
i'll never be able to do it.

i know i muz jiayou.
no matter how tired i am, i must buck up...

i'll do whatever it takes,
for the ppl i love and care.
it may be very tiring,
but i must do it and I WILL.

it's not easy,
i ain't superman,
but who says miracles can't happen?

* so? *

2008-06-22T15:12:00.005+08:00

last nite was KO Night popping and bboy battles.
it was different to be there sitting down and watching,
rather than be the one battling out.
it felt weird but refreshing,
yet honestly it felt alot better to be in the battle
rather than out of it.
T__T

i was itching to dance when some familiar music was played
but i couldn't because i was a spectator, not a competitor.
now u get why i felt uneasy being an audience? hahaha.

and yesterday they announced the top 5 moves for the previous round,
and i got 1st again.
the previous week i got 1st too,
so it's two 1st in a row. =))
Fong and I got $200 worth of vouchers from 77th Street as a team!
so i got $100 for myself =)

i wonder what will i get if i do a hat-trick of no.1?
hahaha. guess i gotta work harder man.

and i just wanna say that,
much as credits are due to my own work for my achievements,
credits must also be due to all those who helped me along the way.
Especially for fong, he was the one who inspired me all the time.
His new ways of varying moves when he came back from Taiwan,
it was a big big inspiration for me to finally step out and explore more.
His ideas and belief that i can do certain moves spurred me on,
and even the penguin dive i did to win no.1 was inspired by him.
Thanks fong for helping me so much...
without you i wouldn't be where i am today. =)

Of cos, not forgetting everyone else who showed their support..
Thanks so much to every single one of you,
for your support had made a big difference. =)

and last but not least, thanks to my dear for her support too.
everything u did to motivate me meant so much.
ilu.

* WHOOSH *

2008-06-20T01:41:00.001+08:00

The video is finally out!

The highly anticipated battle of FonKay Styles VS Faith Sociey Crew.
ENJOY! =)

* The Battle *

2008-06-15T20:34:00.002+08:00

The battle against Faith Society Crew is over.
and FonKay Styles won! =D

And it just felt really amazing to have won the battle.
The most important of all,
the most challenging and grueling of all,
but Fonkay styles still won.
The joy and happiness that came along with the victory is priceless.

Honestly speaking, it felt like it was going to be a draw.
The crowd roared for both teams,
I didn't managed to recognise the song in time,
while Fong did well too but we didn't really play enough with the music.
But our battle attitude and strategy seemed to have worked for us. =D

And i did the penguin dive! lols.
Credits go to Fong for inspiring me to do it.
Just a few days back during the FB camp,
he told me about this battle between You & Jin of Hilty & Bosch.
and Jin did this penguin dive against You,
which i tot was really nice.
Not many lockers dare to attempt the penguin dive,
but no doubt it's a powerful move.
And so, last nite i attempted it...
thankfully it worked.

I simply dived towards K-Lock's shoes. haha!

But i admit i was really lucky.
If the attempt didn't turn out well,
it could well have killed the chances of us winning the battle.

Now that we've won our toughest opponents,
what's left is for us to win our remaining battles
and work hard towards the final.

Thanks so much for all those who came down to support ytd!
Everyone of you meant a lot to us
and it was amazing to dance to such a supportive audience.

Fonkay Styles will work hard and not disappoint.
We'll keep trying our best and hopefully we'll win the final..

Watch us shine. =)

thanks baby for being there to support me..
I LOVE YOU!

* true love ^^ *

2008-06-13T22:21:00.003+08:00

I love my baby! =D

there's been so many things that i've been yearning to blog,
but hasn't found the time to.
and there's been too many things to blog abt la. T__T

found this passage at a friendster profile,
and tot it was meaningful.
it simply echoes what i feel towards my dear. =)

WHEN ITS LOVE.

when you love a girl, you'll always overlook the many things that she did that go way beyond what you believe in. well, even when you feel like shit, you will still hold her hand (because you really want to) and walk with her on this journey.

now you know, it isnt love when you expect her to be someone you want her to be. certainly, you love her not because she's perfect.

she may be a riot but she's perfect, because you love her.

love doesnt require you to kill yourself or sacrifice any beliefs that you hold onto dearly. all you need is to open up your heart (and mind) and see who she really is, and love her completely for who she is.

may it be a pimple on her forehead or a habit to bite her nails everytime she's nervous.

you love her for everything that she is.

and that is..
LOVE.
*

"its not how good you are, but its how good you WANT to be." (:

and that's really true. =))

I wish this can last on and on..

Meanwhile, KO Night's battle against Faith Society Crew
IT'S TOMORROW!
can't wait for it man.
in a way it's gonna be the most intense battle of the competition.
i'll be praying damn hard tht Fong and I will win.
=/

Orchard Youth Park *Scape,
14th June 7.30pm.
that's the place to be at tomorrow if u support FonKay Styles.
=)

And i miss my baby.

* First Battle *

2008-06-12T01:43:00.002+08:00

My First KO Night Battle:

Hope u guys liked what i did. haha.
I'm the last one to come out. and yes u can see my name there la.
T__T

This saturday is the 2nd round.
I'm praying hard tht it'll turn out well.

Oh btw, i'm in school now here at 1.46am,
currently in my dance camp. hahaha... =)

Hope to post more vids of my battles soon. =)

* HAPPY BDAY BABY! *

2008-06-08T00:08:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Dear!!!
=DDDD

I'm so looking forward to celebrating your bday with you for the first time.
Gonna make sure it'll be a great great day for u baby. =D

I love you! <3

* bring back the funk *

2008-06-04T01:37:00.002+08:00

Hasn't been updating. sorry guys.

Right now i just wanna take the time to talk abt KO Night.
about Locking. Will be a very long post... lol.

31st May was my first KO Night battle, against "Funky Lions".
Fong and I won,
and i supposedly did the best ever freestyle of my life so far.
I really think that i was lucky,
coz i couldn't have been more familiar with the music.
but nevertheless, the feeling that i got on stage was special.

Somehow, somewhat... that battle made me realised,
perhaps locking is really my thing after all. =)

And recently i've been thinking alot...

Big thanks to all those who came down just to support FonKay Styles.
And i'm not used to all the praise abt me being dope.
I dun think i'm there yet.
Seeing Fong with nicer postures, techniques and groove,
seeing K-Lock with better stamina and musicality,
it all spurs me to think that I'm still not there yet.
But i really appreciates all the compliments... Thanks.. =))

Well, I know i have what it takes.
But i'm not there yet. And i just gotta be more consistent.
Right now, i can freestyle but the good things dun always come.
Sometimes i do it really well,
but sometimes i get stuck and i keep repeating the same moves.

It all depends on the feel u know.
The feeling u get from the stage, the audience, the music.

Last saturday, it felt awesome on stage.
I knew tht all eyes were on me. I knew the music.
And naturally i knew what moves to do, without thinking.

If only i can keep up with this, and always be able to do it...
Then winning KO Night would be more of a reality rather than just a dream.

And winning KO Night isn't just for the kaki tamago.

I dun really care abt going to Japan.
I mean, yea it's a great thing to have a free sponsored trip,
but first i dun have $ to spend there,
and next i dun know what i will do there with Fong. hahahaha.
that's sth i seriously have no answer to at the moment. T__T

If i do win KO Night with Fong...
it'll mean that all my hard work put into locking has finally bear fruit.
It's just a platform for me to learn more, know more, improve more,
and ultimately... express more. =)

My passion for locking goes further than i can imagine.
The feeling i get from funk music,
the joy i get from entertaining the audience,
the sense of satisfaction knowing that I'm being myself on stage.
Showing the world how much i love to dance...

I'm surprised by even myself, to have came this far.
Little than 2 years ago i was just a junior,
not knowing anything about Locking except that Ian was gd at it.
and now, i'm up there on stage with Fong,
gaining recognition for our efforts.

Honestly i'm tired.
Having to balance between dance and studies,
it's really difficult and tiring.
But much as i keep telling myself to take a break from dance,
my passion for locking just tells me not to stop.
But i suppose tht after KO Night, FTL, and FB Production,
I'll take the break that i've been wanting to have.

Then one day i might just come back fresher. =)

Next battle's on 14th June,
against K-lock & Danny.
I'm hoping for the best,
hoping that I can do well on stage again.
It's a challenge not just to win the opponent,
but also a challenge to outshine myself with every rounds that come.
And every battle matters,
not juz this one against K-Lock.

And well, everyone eagerly anticipates for this battle.
So am I.
Coz K-lock, much as ppl have mixed opinions abt him,
is still a worthy opponent who already has an established reputation.
And i'm so looking forward to it man.

KO Night Quarter-Finals Battles Round 2:
14th June, Orchard Youth Park *Scape.
7.30pm, catch FonKay Styles there.

We'll shine. =)

* 8th Month *

2008-06-01T03:45:00.004+08:00

Happy 8th Month Baby!!! =D

it's so amazing, 8 months.
just hope we can carry on and never let go.. <3333

絕不能失去你 - F4

(言)沒有你我會是誰心停在那裡都不對
拿今天擦掉昨天空白一片
(周)那一天在那一天可以繼續未完情節
在這交叉點誰陪在你身邊
(朱)就算全世界都要把你否定也不能讓我放棄你
(吳)就算我們的過去都沒有了證明
(合)我依然守護你

Oh baby baby baby, my baby baby
我絕不能失去你你手心你聲音
選佔領我的心怎能忘記想你就像是呼吸
Oh baby baby baby, my baby baby
我絕不能失去你不管你在那裡
我一定會找到你

(言)有一天會有一天
用流星雨見證誓言
(周)你將會發現永遠並不遙遠
(吳)就算全世界都要把你否定也不能讓我放棄你
(合)就算我們的過去都沒有了證明我依然守護你

Oh baby baby baby, my baby baby
我絕不能失去你你手心你聲音
選佔領我的心怎能忘記想你就像是呼吸
Oh baby baby baby, my baby baby
我絕不能失去你不管你在那裡
我一定會找到你

* baybui! *

2008-05-19T23:09:00.003+08:00

actually there's still more pics to upload.

BUT..

1. I'm lazy
2. I dun have all the pics yet.
3. I dunno what pics to choose.

So. just 3 pics. HAHA!

anyways. ppl.
things are fine le.
i went out with my dear today! =D
ate good food, shopped a lot,
took lots of pics,
took neoprints,
and had a great day out! =D

thanks for those who showed concern.
it was very much appreciated! =))

and tmr is back to sch. sian. =/

i'm just so tired and lazy.
so 'bye' i shall say.
haha!

* KO Night top 5 *

2008-05-04T20:29:00.002+08:00

It's Fong and me at KO Night again!

This time round it's just a freestyle showcase, coz we had already been confirmed to have qualified for the battle rounds. But it wasn't an easy showcase coz we were not familiar with the song (we had no choice over it and had to freestyle on the spot). I was rather nervous but i guess it turned out to be just okay~. Sigh.

Up next are the battle rounds, starting from 17th May and all the way till at least July, or even september if i'm lucky enough to reach the finals. I'm just hoping for the best, and i know i gotta improve from now till then.

Watch Fonkay Styles shine!

* tarot *

2008-05-04T20:27:00.001+08:00

You are The Tower

Ambition, fighting, war, courage. Destruction, danger, fall, ruin.

The Tower represents war, destruction, but also spiritual renewal. Plans are disrupted. Your views and ideas will change as a result.

The Tower is a card about war, a war between the structures of lies and the lightning flash of truth. The Tower stands for "false concepts and institutions that we take for real." You have been shaken up; blinded by a shocking revelation. It sometimes takes that to see a truth that one refuses to see. Or to bring down beliefs that are so well constructed. What's most important to remember is that the tearing down of this structure, however painful, makes room for something new to be built.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

* FonKay Styles *

2008-04-28T22:27:00.002+08:00

FonKay Styles @ KO Night Audition Heats 1!

This is the video of Fong and myself at KO Night's audition, an event organised by O-School. Fong and I passed the audition and is looking forward to the battle rounds! =)

Credits to darren for the vid. Hope u guys like it!

* pundeh *

2008-04-25T15:44:00.002+08:00

sorry for the so lack of updates.

my laptop's been dying on me very frequently,
so much that i dun bother switching on my laptop anymore.
there's too many pictures and too many stories to tell,
but i just couldn't find the chance to share everything with u guys here.
so sorry. =/

while i am waiting to see if my aunt will lend me her laptop,
let me juz briefly blog abt what's been happening to me. haha.

Celebrated 6th month with dear at Glasshouse' Fish & Co.
=))

i turned 19 and ate fire steak at Jack's Place with dear.
Had a bday celebration at a Teochew restaurant with my family,
and the meal costs $300+. (WOAH)

went to cut my hair at Heatwave By Monsoon.
i dyed my hair brown on my own. =))

performed for NYP Club Crawl
and i'm happy with the performances.. it was great!
(day 1 vids are alr on youtube. check it out yo!)

Took part in O-School's "KO Night" dance battles' audition,
and passed the audition together with Fong.
FonKay Styles are back! =))

Ate sashimi with dear at Ichiban Sushi.
OMFG IT'S DAMN NICE LA.
hahahahahaha~

Fell ill 2 days ago, with rather serious flu and cough.
My K800i phone's LCD screen cracked,
so i have no choice but to use my dad's spare phone.
Arghs.

Been thru quite a few ups and downs with dear,
but guess wad.. next thurs' our 7th month. =)))

It's so amazing how so many things happened
in just 3 weeks of April passed.
Pictures will be uploaded soon i hope.
No guarantee.. but i'm praying hard tht my aunt will lend me her laptop.
=/

and i want $$$$$$$$$. zzzzzz.

* 19th! *

2008-04-11T23:44:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

I've turned 19. =))

* 6 months! *

2008-04-01T22:15:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 6TH MONTH DARLING! =D

* holidays beens *

2008-03-30T19:31:00.004+08:00

Been enjoying a lot during hols.
Been to malaysia to visit relatives and came back.
Been working too and getting very tired.
Been going out with dear everywhere and enjoying life,
even though we dun have much money.

Been eating Mos Burger like crazy almost everyday,
trying out each and every little dish and going crazy over them.
Ankake Chicken Burger, Tako Cutlet Burger, Unagi Burger, Ebi Burger,
Butterfly Prawns, Mussels, Croquette, Mos Chicken,
Iced Milk Tea, Iced Apple Soda...
OMG I WANT MOS BURGER EVERYDAY LA.
T.T

Been going to Daiso very often, everything goes at $2 each.
crazy shop.

Been cooking a lot, especially pastas and scrambled eggs.
I want to find time to learn cooking from dear's mum! =P

Been working as a part time relief teacher at Yew Tee Primary,
getting stressed out but also hyped up by all the kids in the school.
And suddenly my 2 younger brothers look like angels to me
coz as compared to many other kids,
the 2 of them are really much nicer. =)

Been going to dance less frequently than before,
and i'm starting to get stagnant and rusty.
I dun feel like committing so much anymore since i'll be in year 3.
Studies really come first, money comes next,
and of coz there's still my family and dear to spend time with.
Suddenly, dance is really not the most important thing as i realised.
I can only dance whenever i can afford to, i'm afraid. =/

Been missing a lot of friends and desperately wants to meet everyone,
but dun have enough time or money to do so.
Arghs.

Been very pek chek with my laptop coz it's hardly stable anymore,
and i'm sick and tired of my laptop
so tht explains why this blog is getting idle.

Been going thru a lot of ups and downs with dear,
but i'm glad we're still together and it's just 2 days away
before we're officially together for 6 months. =D

So many things had happened within the past few weeks,
and i just want to blog abt them very briefly.
But i cannot guarantee i can blog tht often anymore,
so pls bear with my blog's lack of updates.
Sincere apologies for concerned friends who constantly visits..

CK will be fine and is looking forward to a new sch term.
I hope everyone's happy and well too. =)

* UPDATE! *

2008-03-04T22:59:00.002+08:00

been a long time since i last updated...
i've been lazy. hahaha... sorry peeps.

it's finally the HOLIDAYS! =D

yeaa baby! been waiting for so damn long la~~~
and these few days i've been so in need of rest,
that i decided not to come online at all even.
kinda true that i'm sick and tired of my laptop actually.
lol!

but yeaa i guess i have to update after all.
been leaving this blog dead for too long.. haha.
but i'm still lazy to blog details,
so let's allow the pictures below to do the talking! =D

cooked breakfast for dear. ^^

she bought me strawberry sundae! =D

we ate donuts!

and there's so many more pics i wanna show actually,
but i'm lazy to transfer the pics from my PC to my laptop.
so ppl, be patient. haha!

holidays make me feel like a lazybum.
congratulations to me for finally turning into a pig! -__-"

and baby, get well soon.. =)

* =))))) *

2008-02-24T22:40:00.002+08:00

just a random post...

6 Days more to our 5th month! =D

* 幸福 *

2008-02-21T23:56:00.003+08:00

以为我一直都在给予鼓励和赞赏，原来我只不过让你更厌烦。
以为我可以勇敢的面对你的情绪，但我其实没有那么勇敢。

爱一个人，真的有那么难吗？

而白羊座放下了自尊，还是白羊吗?
我不愿去知道答案。
我只知道，我愿意付出我的所有，即使是放下我的尊严我也心甘情愿...

一切只为了看到你的笑容，因为你一笑就已足够让我更有信心的走下去。
就算再累，心情再坏，有你的鼓励我就可以更努力。

我虽然不是一个很好的男朋友，但我绝对可以用我一生的时间去爱护你。
我虽然会犯错，但我一直都在花费心思去改变。

然而，现在的我仿佛就像是在一个十字路口。
车辆太多，人群太乱，而我则愣在一旁不知该何去何从。
但我很清楚我最终的目的地，那就是能给你终生幸福的途径。
只要能给你幸福，路上再拥挤我也要冲破一切障碍。

而我也会一直努力帮你带走忧愁的灰暗；总有一天你必定会看到幸福的曙光。
因为，未来的路有我陪你一起走。=)

* 爱情证书 *

2008-02-21T13:54:00.000+08:00

寂寞当然有一点
你不在我身边
总是特别想念你的脸
距离是一份考卷
测量相爱的誓言
最后会不会实现

我们为爱还在学
学沟通的语言
学著谅解学著不流泪
等到我们学会飞
飞越黑夜和考验
日子就要从孤单里毕业

我们用多一点点的辛苦
来交换多一点点的幸福
就算幸福还有一段路
等我们学会忍耐和付出
这爱情一定会有张证书
证明从此不孤独

do you still feel the same?

* how i wish *

2008-02-21T13:30:00.003+08:00

sometimes i really just wish we dun have to undergo such stressful times.

i'm fast losing who i really am.
i swear i hate being in DMD, it sucks the life out of me.
fuck.

why do i keep banging into the wall between us,
when all i wanted to do was to help break it?

* sp4 hell *

2008-02-21T10:12:00.002+08:00

These few days have been nothing short of the word "busy".
And i've been feeling nothing but lethargy.

I've been sleeping at like 2, 3am every nite,
waking up at 7+ and reaching sch at 8+ or 9am daily.
It just feels so tiring but i have to keep it going till next friday.
I really hate studio project for depriving me of so much time..
but then again, i also wanna do well for this one
especially since i'm working on FB for it.
=/

i just hope that dear and me will be able to survive thru the next 8 days.
8 DAYS LEFT TO FREEDOM LA!

and congrats to dear for getting into DMD!
=D

let's jiayou ba. CHIONG AH!!!

* my one and only *

2008-02-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

I miss her, my one and only ^^

be with me thru thick and thin, just as i will be with you always. =)

and it suck not to have my handphone now.
ppl, pls dun sms me till tues nite coz i had sent my hp for repair...

nothing matters more than your smile. =)

* a heavy heart *

2008-02-17T02:52:00.002+08:00

my heart feels extremely heavy tonite...

if only i can turn back into time, and do what i didn't do.
i hate myself for being such an idiot. =(

* Totally Beaten *

2008-02-13T01:23:00.000+08:00

It's time for Studio Project 4... sigh.

right now, progress for the project isn't that good.
it took us extremely long to think of a concept,
and the final concept we chose was more of a last resort than anything else.
i can only hope that it will be approved by the tutors...

and i already dun know how i'm gonna survive the next 3 weeks.
the only consolation is that Valentine's around the corner,
and this year will be the first time i dun have to spend it alone.. =)

meanwhile, dear's stressed over her portfolio that determines her fate...
i really hope i can help her..
i really have faith in whatever she does and i am gonna stand by her..
i hope she knows that, it hurts to see her having to work so hard like this,
and i couldn't be there beside her to cheer her up and encourage her...

but before that can happen,
i know i must cheer myself up first.

GO CK GO! U CAN DO IT DE! YEAAAA!!!!

(right, that was lame. -__-")

Jeanie,
no matter how difficult it is going to be,
to me you're always gonna be able to get thru it all.
no matter how grumpy you are gonna be,
i'll continue to be here to lend u a listening ear and hear u grumble.

JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!
nothing can ever defeat my girl.. =))

* CNY!!! HOHO! *

2008-02-09T00:53:00.001+08:00

It's been 2 days of CNY...
hope everyone had much fun, laughter and rest!

well, for me these 2 days were rather hectic.
went to visit relatives here and there,
dear came to my place ytd
and i went to hers as well as her uncle's today.
it's been great going to each other's places for CNY,
and i'm looking forward to doing so again next year. =)

this weekend could be pretty boring.
but at least there's still plenty of red packets waiting for me..

and i'm frantically saving up for Valentines!

Ms Chan Jeanie, just wait and see. HOHO.
=p

i can't live a moment without your love...

* CNY! *

2008-02-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY to all!

and yes, finally it's CNY.
been looking forward to it! (okay actually not so quite)
but at least now my semester is nearly over.
just left with 3 weeks of studio project to chiong!

and today was the last day of sch before studio project.
i just feel so relieved that i survived the semester.
okay i didn't do very well i know,
but at least it feels better than last sem. =)

i'm now juz looking forward to life after studio project.
i wanna go work!
Yew Tee Primary better call me for relief teaching assignments.
i want so many things!
i wanna start paying my own phone bills -_-"
i wanna get Road Dawgs! New Era!
And bloody lots of things for dear!
and also save up for the future of coz.
all in all, I JUST NEED MONEY LA DAMMIT.

T__T

hopefully i'll get lots of $ out of CNY this year.
same goes for everyone out there okay!
COME COME LET'S ALL GET RICH! hahahaha!

It's time to say the same old words:
GONG XI FA CAI!!! ~~hong bao na lai~~~~
=X

i wanna hold your hands =)

* jeanie!!! *

2008-02-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

to whoever that has been spamming on jeanie's blog,
flaming her and making her sound bad,
this goes out to you:

firstly, don't assume that i'll be affected by your words.
who's her bf? me or you?
dun assume that you know her better than i do.
i dun need you to tell me how she's like,
and why i shld leave her or how i can stand her, blah blah blah.
it's all a load of nonsense.

and if you think that she's too full of herself,
too proud and arrogant, ignorant or whatsoever that u claim to be so,
you are so damn wrong.
learn to look beyond the surface of things won't you?

but perhaps no matter wad i say,
it's not gonna make u guys stop what u're doing.
i'm posting this up just to make my stand clear...
so dun assume anymore that your words can affect me.
in fact it doesn't, and i find all those words ludicrous.

I SUPPORT CHAN JEANIE!
and all those who supports her too, stand up and be counted! =D

dear, jiayou... =)

* messed *

2008-02-02T02:47:00.000+08:00

my life's in a mess now.
a big bloody mess.

i would love to get more sleep,
but i've screwed myself up for 3 consecutive nights
and my total sleeping time for these 3 days are lesser
than a normal person's sleep for 1 day.

i would love to be happier,
but tonite i had just screwed up again and made myself unhappy.

i would love to hate myself now,
but i am gonna just pick myself up and remind myself of all my faults.

it's a damn stressful period now.
yet where is the CK who promised to learn how to handle everything?
stop going AWOL.
you know you can't run and you can't hide.

just get on with everything now,
and remember to be the person u promised urself to be.
u've worked so hard to come thus far;
dun commit the same mistakes again and put yourself back to square one.

CK, jiayou bah.

for the love of Chan Jeanie, and also the good of urself, you must do it.
GO GO GO!

* tired like sai *

2008-01-31T20:52:00.000+08:00

it reads "I am tired" on my face.

I hasn't been blogging lately i know,
but it's more like i'm lazy and tired to blog.
Too many things to do, too little inclination to do them all.
CNY may be looming near,
but it certainly don't feel like it's a good time for CNY.
i mean, i just dun feel the enthusiasm of CNY now.
maybe i'll feel it during then,
but after CNY it's 3 weeks of STUDIO PROJECT.

to hell with life in poly. =/

these few days so many things had happened...
actually, to be exact, a lot of things related to dear happened.
but at least now everything seems to be better alr.
i'm just very glad that thru this period,
dear and i have bonded closer together,
and it seems like we've found back the feeling of our "honeymoon period".
=)

my whole body is shouting out loud to me,
that i badly need a rest from DMD.
i'm just thankful that, fate appears to have heard my body's pleas.
my IAP will be in the last quarter of the year onwards,
meaning i will still get the usual 6 weeks holiday period after sp4.
phews..

still, i have this urge to join dance competitions.
i miss the feeling of working hard to dance,
dancing in a group for a real purpose,
and improving myself along with others.
Team Trademark is inspiration, i admit.

all i hope for right now,
is that before i go for my IAP,
i can join Remix 08 at least, if not Suntec Dance 08.
or maybe even Floor The Love, if it comes again.
I JUST WANT TO DANCE WITH FB LAH!
=/

tmr's 4th month with dear,
but we cannot go out to celebrate...
still, we both know how much it means to us.
I'm hoping that tomorrow we will still be able to celebrate in a way somehow.
=)

Don't Worry, Be Happy.
our new motto in life. =)

* SCRAM *

2008-01-22T23:45:00.000+08:00

Chan Jeanie!

No matter what, you have my support!
=D

and to all those ANTI-JEANIE ppl:
those who love jeanie can already outnumber all of you.
u're already fighting a losing battle, so why fight?
heh. it's interesting to see why you guys still wanna fight back.

do whatever u like, whatever u want,
but nothing's gonna stop me from loving Jeanie. =)

* K.O-ed *

2008-01-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

Congrats to Team Trademark for getting into Funkamania finals!
Well done to Dime Brizzles for their fantastic efforts too! =)

Today's been a long day.
Woke up early, went to dear's place and cooked breakfast for her!
Well.. it was supposed to be American Breakfast,
but due to the lack of groceries available i had to cook noodles instead.
i made some scrambled egg and sausages to go along with the noodles though.
nothing too complicated but i guess she liked it. =)

We then headed to meet up with the FB peeps to go NUS
and lend our support for the funka teams.
It was an amazing afternoon of non-stop dance competition,
and i was quite impressed by the concepts of most teams.
Still, it disgusts me to see groups putting in locking & popping routines
when they dun even have the techniques or even basics for it.
The more they do, the more it exposed their lack of techniques...

In the very least, all 10 finalist teams were deserving of their place.
That's the best consolation out of the day for the audience i guess..

Headed to Cineleisure with some FB peeps to eat,
and some of us ate at Es Teler 77.
It was pretty simple but nice indonesian fare,
and it's quite cheap too!
A pity that i'm down with cough and flu..
otherwise i would have tried even better food. =(

and speaking about my cough and flu..
i guess somehow it got worse today.
now i'm struggling to decide if i should go see a doc tmr,
get a MC and dun go to school.
sigh.. it's just the start of the year,
and i'm already sick and in need to skip lessons to rest at home.
wtf sia.

sometimes, u'll get it wrong when u try too hard to be right.
that's what i feel about myself right now....

no matter wad, i won't leave.
stay with me too k? =)

* random *

2008-01-20T01:34:00.001+08:00

What Chun Kiat Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

* ramifications *

2008-01-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

these few days it had been nothing short of the word "busy".

been rushing assignments,
having project meetings,
and also making sure that i can keep everyone happy.
well.. so far everything's been good.

right now i have a lot of concerns on my mind.
financial issues are one, assignments another,
and my laptop hasn't been doing my favours lately as well.
it keeps switching off or restarting on its own,
and i feel damn pissed whenever that happens.
my laptop is like going bonkers with viruses and glitches.
ARGHS!

and looking ahead, 2008 will be a tough year.
IAP, FYPJ, it's all coming from late August onwards.
and before that, non-stop DMD studies from April.
and even before that, it's time to go work and earn money..
which is when i will start working a lot as relief teacher i think..
not forgetting that before that i gotta pia for this semester
and try my best to get good grades for studio project too.

2009 won't be any better.
but i can only try my best to complete this year smoothly...

and all the best to Team Trademark and Dime Brizzles!
do FB proud at Funkamania k! =)

only you can make the darkness bright =)

* F5 *

2008-01-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

Open House's over,
DMD life resumed,
but most importantly... we're back together. =D

and now i got a new hairstyle,
which is quite dope.
all credits due to Mabel from Kimage (yishun)!

hmmms. i dno what else to blog abt alr.
my mind's in a blank... lol.

there's so many things tht i gotta change.
and i can only try my best, to learn how to prioritise things.
just as wad cz said to me today...
rather than put 20, 30% for this and that..
why not try to put in 100% for everything?

hmmms. i hope i can really put in 100% for everything..
i gotta do it. i must!

我绝不能失去你... =)

* Love Me *

2008-01-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

may this never be the last.

I guess your decision was right...
Letting go, is perhaps the best way to move forward.
It'll do both of us good, and i'm already feeling that way.

It's really unbearable to part,
but we both know it's for the better of our future.
And whatever that's meant to be yours, will be yours.
If we're really meant for each other,
one day we'll be back together. =)

and in the meantime, let's jiayou ba!
AJA AJA! =)

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores all through, I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down, Darling wait and see
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you..love me

* white windmill *

2008-01-11T19:52:00.000+08:00

白色的风车安静的转着真实的感觉梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水复杂的眼泪看你傻笑着握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头我们走到这就好因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福 当爱你并不孤独不会再让你哭

我背你走到最后能不能不要回头你紧紧地抱住我说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由 我不懂你说什么反正不会松手
我背你走到最后能不能别想太多会不会手牵着手晚一点才到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间谢谢你让我听见 因为我在等待永远

i don't want an ending like the MV.
but i can only try my best to prevent it from happening...

if i ever let u go, it'll be because u deserve someone better.
and all i can do now is to try my best to be even better...

jiayou bah CK!

* 重来 *

2008-01-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

i wish i can turn back to time...
when everything was well and happy..
but i can't.

yet, i won't ask for another chance anymore.
how dumb it was of me,
to ask for a chance when i am the one who made the mistakes..

i'll do all tht i can to earn the chance instead...
and i gotta learn how to truly love myself,
before i can learn how to love you.

i just wonder why it took me so long
to realise the difference between loving yourself and being selfish..

i still wish to turn back into the past..
but now... let me just do my best to give a better future.

ck, it's time to be who u are supposed to be.
JIAYOU LA PIGHEAD CK!

()_()
('(00)')
( ) . ( )
"( )( )" ------------> me!
" "

well just trying to lighten the atmosphere up.
coz it's time for me to buck up, be positive,
and change myself the way i gotta be. =)

* only you *

2008-01-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

only you...

Only you can make this world seem right
Only you can make the darkness bright.
Only you and you alone
Can thrill me like you do
And fill my heart with love for only you.

Only you can make this change in me,
For it's true, you are my destiny.
When you hold my hand,
I understand the magic that you do.

You're my dream come true,
My one and only you.

* i hate myself *

2008-01-10T03:50:00.001+08:00

i can't get to sleep.
and now it feels like a thousand daggers piercing thru my heart.

i am starting to see more and more problems with myself..
and now, i finally see why my family have always been trying to change me..
why friends never really stayed, why girls never saw me as the right one.
it's because, i really dun deserve any love in the first place.

i used to think that i can get whatever i want, as long as i try.
but now i realised, sometimes certain things cannot be taken for granted.
i thought that i've always been a good friend to most,
a caring and helpful one, and ever willing to do my best to make everyone happy.
but as it turned out to be, i'm just living in a world of self-denial...

it's time for me to grow, to learn, and to be who i truly NEEDS to be.
getting bitten once tonight is already bad enough,
and i need no second reminder of the pain i suffered tonite...

yet all the pain i'm going thru now, is nothing compared to yours.

to all those who i had hurt before because of my ego,
i'm really sorry to have done so.
i'll learn how to let down my ego and learn to be less self-centred...

and to the ones who had been telling me to change,
i'm sorry that i hasn't lived up to expectations.
in fact i almost never really did anything to change...

and last but not least.. to the one who matters most..
i'm sorry for the pain i've put u thru.
it's been tough on you and i know i dun deserve someone so good.
but i'm gonna justify your choice and convince u tht u dun have to regret.
i'll learn to understand myself, before i understand u and everyone else...

i will learn to love others more than my egoistic self.
and this, is definitely the most important resolution for 2008.

hopefully the Open House performances will go on well...
and i'll try my best to dance to the fullest,
even though my mood and energy's being affected...
and i won't complain,
because i know i brought it upon myself this time.
well done, ck. =(

and now, all i want is to be rightfully and deservedly yours...
for now and ever..

Superwoman --- 曹格

Early in the morning, I put breakfast at your table
一夜都没睡但我　不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了你　爱吃的东西
这次换我等你被咖啡　的香味叫醒

想要找回每天早晨　对我微笑著的你
还能够　做些什麼代替我的歉意
总是望著我　小心翼翼顺著我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然　让你精疲力尽

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麼不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Ooh—Babe---

You fought your way through the rush hour
Try to make it home just for me
月光下静静靠著彼此　只求夜长一点
有多久没有好好看你　只是认定了我
无论在什麼时候回头　都有你的笑容

是我忽略了你也会有　想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人最後一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待　不要真的弃权

(---Baby)是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心裏唯一的superwoman没有人能代替
不能想像更不能原谅这样让爱化成　灰烬

If you feel it in your heart and you understand me.
STOP right where you are, everybody sing along with me.

* 2008 resolutions *

2008-01-07T00:38:00.000+08:00

Almost a week of 2008 had passed,
and i'm already tired, worn out, stressed,
and nearly beaten by a lot of things.
unhappy things aside,
the past few days were littered with plenty of uncertainties,
as well as worries over my assignments..

i'm just glad that i still have reasons to be happy. =)

anyways i just wanna blog about my resolutions for 2008!
been thinking about it for days, so here u go:

(in no particular order of importance)
1. save more $
2. complete all assignments
3. eat more + work out more = broader shoulders.
4. listen more, argue less. =)
5. pass all modules
6. stay healthy
7. stay happy with dear, my family and my friends
8. improve in locking
9. obtain driving license
10. get to sleep more

hmmms. looks pretty fine and normal to me. lols.

meanwhile, i feel damn tired now. eyes nearly closing...
and there's endless work to finsh la.
dammit. i hate to be in a holiday mood. =(

i can only pray for the best...

and well, at least i still have u. =)

* happy new year! =) *

2008-01-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

Happy 2008 to all! =)

and also Happy 3rd Month to me and my girl. =)

last nite's countdown with dear didn't go as well as planned,
but i guess she could see the effort ba.
i just dun want to use candles anymore. hahahaha! =p

and she bought me this damn nice shirt from Bossini,
which wrote "Get Em' Locked"... =D
yea man.. locking!!! hahahahas.
thanks dear.. =)

so today, i got her a bouquet of 3 red roses...
went all the way to kebun baru to get it..
and seeing her smile when i gave it to her,
i know tht my efforts weren't wasted. =)

we went to PS today,
celebrated our anniversary in a really simple manner.
initially we were to watch Alvin & The Chipmunks,
but due to the long queue and the lack of time,
we decided to just window shop and eat.
ate Long John Silver for lunch,
Ajisen Ramen for dinner,
and basically a lot of window shopping was done.
but to me it was still a very happy day,
even though everything was simple... =)

but i still hope i can have more $ la.
then we'll be able to afford to celebrate more lavishly. hahaha!
it doesn't hurt to be pampered once in a while. =p

and the idea of assignments turn me off now.
sian. i hate to be stuck in a holiday mood. =/

all i want is just to be able to do what i really want to do..
but there's so little time, too many commitments.
sigh.

thanks goodness i still have you... =)

* end is beginning *

2007-12-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

Hasn't uploaded a pic of just myself for ages.
so here u go, a pic of myself alone.
and i just look like i'm very tired, don't i?

perhaps that's really the case. =/

meanwhile, tomorrow's the last day of 2007.
and i foresee that i will be too busy to blog tmr,
so i shall blog today about my reflections for the year.
this post will be VERY LONG, but yet important to me.
every last post of the year means something...
this post included. =)

2007, a year of many ups and downs.
i hasn't been thru a year of such intensity yet,
and overall the year has been good.
let's take a brief walk down memory lane...

at the start of the year, i was still a FB junior,
working damn hard for danceworks and practising like mad.
and in the end we didn't win anything for dance,
but we got 1st for our commercial skit.
the sheer joy of just winning sth is already memorable enough...
and i really miss danceworks.
i miss working with my 'influenza' team-mates..
arjuna, shaf, farhan, min hui, vi, ryan, albin, yanping, su & li,
thanks so much for all the memories. =)

and after danceworks, it was club crawl.
all of a sudden, i find myself being a FB senior alr.
how fast, sudden, and yet expected.
i was lost at the sudden change of responsibility,
and i didn't know if i could handle it all...
but now as i look back, i'm happy that things have went well.
i may not have been some very significant figure,
but at least i feel that i hasn't been a bad senior either. =)

and as time went on,
i find myself suddenly thrusted into the limelight.
Floor The Love battle competition in September,
it was a competition that forced me to grow, learn and improve.
Along with Fong, i had to train myself incredibly hard...
and within a short span of less than 2 months,
the 2 of us improved so much more yea,
not to mention getting the chance to learn some locking from Gemini.
once again i failed to win anything in the competition,
but at least i know that i had improved.
and the praise, encouragements, tears and smiles showered on us,
it all just meant so much... =)

and now, i realised, this year has been very much significant
because of my commitments to FB.
without FB, i wouldn't have been who i am now,
and neither would i be attached either...

i still can't believe how fortunate i am,
to be attached to Jeanie right now.
i almost lost all hopes when i was hurt more than once,
with my heart shattered umpteen times
as i still hung on to a previous infatuation.
indeed, it's thru tough times and much pain
that i realised what's infatuation and what's love..
and i'm really glad that i learnt the differences now.
i know i love Jeanie. =)

and looking back, i have no regrets for the past,
because without all those pain,
i wouldn't have gain what i have now.
even though i had lost a friendship in the process,
it's a friendship i believe i can do without...
i need no grey areas between "just-friends" and "more-than-just friends".

and it's amazing how fast time flies.
2 days later, it will be officially 3 months with Jeanie.
with each day that passes by, i feel more and more settled...
it may only have been 3 months,
but i can already see a future for the 2 of us ahead. =)

many thanks to the FB seniors who had provided invaluable advice,
with Puaz, Ian, David, Simin and JX in particular...
as well as to my cat high mates Kes, Choon Hang, Chunyuan and Ronald
who had always stood by me and gave me encouragements...
and also to my goldmine dears Ruth, Shiqi and YF
who were there for me when i was deeply hurt before.

and not forgetting my IMP-S grp mates CZ and +Lin,

who were fantastic studio project mates and great friends too..
All of you had made a big difference for me.. thanks..

and last but not least,
the biggest "thank you" is reserved for my girl, Chan Jeanie.
i know it took u a long time to be sure that things could work out,
and it wasn't easy for you to believe that i'm the one for you.
i understood that i also hasn't been perfect recently,
giving you unnecessary problems and worries..

to my dear, i'm grateful for:
your patience, especially since u are usually impatient...
your tolerance, coz i know sometimes i were really unreasonable.
your understanding, as u made me felt that u are on my side.
your big wide smiles, because it cheers me up best. =D

and there's so many more things tht i need to thank you for,
but if i were to write it all down
i'll get shot with tonnes of complains
for this post being too long (and mushy too).
so i'll just sum it all up with 1 sentence..
and it's just very simple, yet meaningful...

Chan Jeanie, I love you! =))

2008, here i come!
(and i'll post my 2008 resolutions soon... lol)

wishing everyone a very happy 2008 ahead. =)

* jolly season *

2007-12-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

finally found time to blog.
congrats to me.. hahaha!

these few days i've been really busy with alot of stuffs.
assignments, work for the SAO,
dance, and of coz not forgetting celebrating x'mas with dear..

there's too many things for me to blog abt,
with happy and unhappy stuffs all clogged up in my mind.
but i'm just gonna blog abt the happy stuffs. =))

well, highlight of this festive season,
is going to Essential Brew at holland village for x'mas eve!
and the food is damn dope. amazingly nice food!
the smoked salmon pasta is a must try!

and basically i'm just very happy to have spent a happy x'mas.
hahaha.. =)

still, it doesn't hide the stress i have now.
SAO's design commitments, codpit meetings,
ID project meetings, FB blog,
dynamic web assignment, ID assignments,
Open House performance preparations...
and so many more.. endless stuffs to do..

i need a lot of rest, a lot of time,
but i'm getting neither. sigh.

in the very least though, i know i still have my girl. =)
let's jiayou together ba! AJA AJA!