i'm finally 18. =)

*pics:
-my new hp k800i!
-my bday cake. the choc's really rich and creamy. =)


thanks a lot to all those who wished me "happy bday"
and gave me their blessings.
it's very much appreciated yea.. =))


well, 11th April is quite a day i wouldn't want to remember,
but yet it is impossible to forget.
coz of so many reasons, i really find it hard to say why.

let's just say that, the day didn't start off well.
almost woke up late,
rushed for bus, rushed for train,
only to receive an sms from evon tht she'll be late.
so i had to go to Art-Friend on my own
before she joined me a bit later.

bought this small styrofoam box
for me to try painting on it
and see if it'll work for our club crawl booth.
but i lost the box after leaving my printing shop
for less than 5 mins. (the plastic bag was tied to my bag)
and i tried to look for it but it was gone.
zzzz. it was lost and i had bought it for barely 2 hours+!

sian.


was late for locking pract.
but was able to catch up with everything.
and we're finished with the routine. =)
big dreams pract was ok.
finally finished everything including formation.
but i need to work harder on my highs and lows.
very important.


left early for a reason.
but somehow things were not to be.
i am not blaming anyone or being angry at anything,
i'm just counting myself unlucky.
it's not surprising really,
i have been down on luck since 2 weeks ago.
for weeks hardly anything went my way
and the harder i try to be optimistic,
the harder the knocks hit me.

for a moment today, i thought i was going to break down.
so many bad things tht happened on my birthday..
it was hard to bear.
but tears didn't flow. emotions remained calm.
somehow i managed to just calm down and think.

laid on the bed after i reached home.
and did a lot of thinking.
eventually, i came to a conclusion...
one that really made me felt that, i'm truly 18 after all..


been down on luck isn't my fault.
it's a rough patch that everyone goes thru in their life.
it's part and parcel of all the obstacles we face,
and it's up to us to face it.
it may have been a lousy 18th birthday on the surface..
but on the contrary, i think i love it more than any other days.

this is fated to be.
fate decided that this is the best way to tell me:
"u are 18. learn to expect the worst.
know that not everytime u'll get wad u want,
and learn to accept that there are things u cannot force to change."

and so. right now i am really contented with my life now.
i really am.
i'm actually very touched tht so many ppl remembered my bday..
even those who i hasn't talked to for ages.
and seniors who somehow got to rmb...
besides, i have nothing more to ask for.
Puaz gave me a really nice shirt,
and my parents gave me a new K800i handphone!
yeaa man. all of a sudden, i feel happy being 18.
=)


yesterday was a rather screwed up day too
but i am not gonna talk abt it.
right now.. i just wanna look forward to the future
and wish that things will start to be better now..
yea man. life's no longer gonna be the same like before.
like wad Ian says,
"being 18 is the beginning of many good things in life."
haha! =)



yes i'm happy,
even though there's a bit of disappointment left.
but i will forget about the matter...
will simply forgive and forget.
=)



YES PPL. that's a new CK.
18, and found a new way of intepreting life.
haha!



等待，是包容，是原谅
是耐心，是信任。

等待，是我的宿命。