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Sunday, December 30, 2007
* end is beginning */ 9:22 PM  Hasn't uploaded a pic of just myself for ages. so here u go, a pic of myself alone. and i just look like i'm very tired, don't i? perhaps that's really the case. =/ meanwhile, tomorrow's the last day of 2007. and i foresee that i will be too busy to blog tmr, so i shall blog today about my reflections for the year. this post will be VERY LONG, but yet important to me. every last post of the year means something... this post included. =) 2007, a year of many ups and downs. i hasn't been thru a year of such intensity yet, and overall the year has been good. let's take a brief walk down memory lane... at the start of the year, i was still a FB junior, working damn hard for danceworks and practising like mad. and in the end we didn't win anything for dance, but we got 1st for our commercial skit. the sheer joy of just winning sth is already memorable enough... and i really miss danceworks. i miss working with my 'influenza' team-mates.. arjuna, shaf, farhan, min hui, vi, ryan, albin, yanping, su & li, thanks so much for all the memories. =) and after danceworks, it was club crawl. all of a sudden, i find myself being a FB senior alr. how fast, sudden, and yet expected. i was lost at the sudden change of responsibility, and i didn't know if i could handle it all... but now as i look back, i'm happy that things have went well. i may not have been some very significant figure, but at least i feel that i hasn't been a bad senior either. =) and as time went on, i find myself suddenly thrusted into the limelight. Floor The Love battle competition in September, it was a competition that forced me to grow, learn and improve. Along with Fong, i had to train myself incredibly hard... and within a short span of less than 2 months, the 2 of us improved so much more yea, not to mention getting the chance to learn some locking from Gemini. once again i failed to win anything in the competition, but at least i know that i had improved. and the praise, encouragements, tears and smiles showered on us, it all just meant so much... =) and now, i realised, this year has been very much significant because of my commitments to FB. without FB, i wouldn't have been who i am now, and neither would i be attached either... i still can't believe how fortunate i am, to be attached to Jeanie right now. i almost lost all hopes when i was hurt more than once, with my heart shattered umpteen times as i still hung on to a previous infatuation. indeed, it's thru tough times and much pain that i realised what's infatuation and what's love.. and i'm really glad that i learnt the differences now. i know i love Jeanie. =) and looking back, i have no regrets for the past, because without all those pain, i wouldn't have gain what i have now. even though i had lost a friendship in the process, it's a friendship i believe i can do without... i need no grey areas between "just-friends" and "more-than-just friends". and it's amazing how fast time flies. 2 days later, it will be officially 3 months with Jeanie. with each day that passes by, i feel more and more settled... it may only have been 3 months, but i can already see a future for the 2 of us ahead. =) many thanks to the FB seniors who had provided invaluable advice, with Puaz, Ian, David, Simin and JX in particular... as well as to my cat high mates Kes, Choon Hang, Chunyuan and Ronald who had always stood by me and gave me encouragements... and also to my goldmine dears Ruth, Shiqi and YF who were there for me when i was deeply hurt before. and not forgetting my IMP-S grp mates CZ and +Lin, who were fantastic studio project mates and great friends too.. All of you had made a big difference for me.. thanks.. and last but not least, the biggest "thank you" is reserved for my girl, Chan Jeanie. i know it took u a long time to be sure that things could work out, and it wasn't easy for you to believe that i'm the one for you. i understood that i also hasn't been perfect recently, giving you unnecessary problems and worries.. to my dear, i'm grateful for: your patience, especially since u are usually impatient... your tolerance, coz i know sometimes i were really unreasonable. your understanding, as u made me felt that u are on my side. your big wide smiles, because it cheers me up best. =D and there's so many more things tht i need to thank you for, but if i were to write it all down i'll get shot with tonnes of complains for this post being too long (and mushy too). so i'll just sum it all up with 1 sentence.. and it's just very simple, yet meaningful... Chan Jeanie, I love you! =)) 2008, here i come! (and i'll post my 2008 resolutions soon... lol) wishing everyone a very happy 2008 ahead. =) |