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Saturday, April 28, 2007
* lousy day */ 12:06 AM  I'm in a very very bad mood today. This is probably one of the most unfortunate days i ever had... not gonna list down all the unfortunate stuffs that happened today. if i count them out i'm gonna get even more frustrated. just gonna say that i've been losing things... first was my house keys which i lost a few days back and today i lost my ring which i had juz bought for almost 2 weeks. the worst thing is, i have no idea how i lost both... though somehow i think i know where i lost it. it is just... @*&@*(#&*&@#)*!*@@!!*@)(@*!! NYP Musical was great! and i'm inspired, motivated, and touched. the amount of efforts put in by everyone to put up a great show, a fusion of all the dance styles, expressing the true essence of all dance forms, and the amount of pride within the dancers that the audience can feel. for the whole musical, i felt proud that i was there to witness the musical, and i'm also proud that i'm a dancer too. even though i am not the performers, i could feel their joy at performing... how i wish one day i could shine on stage, like the way they did it. and i'm surprised by the quality of the vocals, especially for the ladies. they were absolutely good! so good that i couldn't believe it was sang live... well it certainly was impressive.. yupp thts all abt it i guess... i can only say that, life is absolutely getting nowhere at the moment. there's so many things i wished to do, but didn't have the chance to. there's so many things i wished i didn't do, yet i did them and there's no way back. it doesn't help that i've been so down on luck, and it's no surprise that most of the time i find myself standing alone. even when i stand within a group, it's clear that i'm standing in an odd-one-out position. i guess, when one is down on luck, even the best can fall down sometimes... and i'm not even the best yet, what makes me think that i'll never fall? fallen, i certainly had. and trying to pick myself up, i am. but the going is getting tougher, and the tough doesn't seem to get going. it just gets tougher. i really wish that i can have someone whom i can rely on, to depend on and to find unwaivering support in... but the ones who i know i can surely rely on, they are busy with their own lives and they aren't around me most of the time. as for some ppl that i tot i can rely on... it seems like i'm wrong. i can't help but say that, i'm really disappointed. maybe u nvr wanted to be there in the first place. |